Never Ending Lies

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"You are so stupid I can't even with you" he always says the most random shit even in this situation. "I'm not playing around Alex I'm serious" I sigh to myself " Jay no I do not know what color a smurfs face turn when you choke it OK". I glare at him for making me even think about such a stupid question.

    Sometimes I really fear for him. After intensely staring at my ignorant brother, we both Burst out laughing. I almost pee my pants at his stupidity,but that's what I love about him he never takes ANYTHING seriously​. I remembered when I was younger I had let my pet fish Goldy out of his tank so I could dress him up, but I guess fish can't breath out of water. Yeah I know I wasn't always the smart one OK, we all have our moments. Anyway I cried for a week and when we had Goldy's funeral Jay just stood there laughing at the tiny box he was in, but he still stood there and said his good byes, he's a good brother.
   
      After calming down I look out the window at the beautiful and familiar road outside of the city of New Jersey.
    "I can't believe you actually did that" he looks down while shacking his head. "Hey eyes on the road ok, oh and they all had it coming they shouldn't have thrown my books in the trash ok". Ok so I kinda you know just maybe have stolen and glued all the cheerleaders underwear on the walls of the school. I know what your thinking I'm just a nerd well I'm an awesome fucking nerd ok and will do stupid shit to get revenge ok. Plus they  deserved it. "Well you didn't have to do that" he said smiling like a mad man. "Uh yeah I did now they'll leave me alone ok so now you can shut the fuck up Jay my good brother" he chuckles and I think about how embarrassed they all looked when all the foot ball players would go by the wall and sniff them like they were some scratch and sniff sticker "Ewww this one smells Like fish" heheh I'm so bad.
     
     "Ok ok I got to agree with you on that one,but you know mom is going to beat your ass right" ugh I hate him why can't he just let me enjoy this moment. "I hate you" I pout and turn my hole body so I could look away. "What you know its true" I sigh for like five minutes then turn my body back to the front. I know he's right I hate when he's right my is going to funk ng flip. "Why dose she have to be so bitchy all the time" I look over at Jay he's as quite as always when I talk about mom I don't k is why,but it really pisses me off.
   For someone who lost half their memory you'd think they would tell you things but all they basically tell me about my past was what I needed to know,but whenever I bring it up its always "your not in the past your in the present Alex" or " it doesn't matter anymore Alex" I always feel so closed of from everything because no one will tell me anything. " you shouldn't be so hard on mom she's had it hard". I hear Jay say to me and I scoff to myself " had it hard my awesome ass she has all she wants and "she" has a hard life whatever that's just bullshit and you know it".
   I look back at Jay to see if I can get a comment from him but nope he's just looking through the front window not saying anything. Fucking great.

   Jays truck comes to a stop he leans back and looks at me from his seat. "Please sis she's just trying to take care of you give her a break ok" I sigh and look over at my brother who is looking at me with whinny hazel eyes and dark brown hair like me.
  I give up on the argument and unbuckle my seat belt and lift the middle compartment between the seats and  scoot over to were he is sitting and lay my head on his chest and give him a hug. He slowly strokes my hair.
  "I love you Alex" I hear him say and I feel like he might be on the verge. I listen to his breath and his heart beat."I forgive you" I say while I close my eyes "what for sis" he says and stops stroking my hair I chuckle "for your stupid question about the smurfs fuckhead". He laughs and my head bounces on his chest when he dose. I open my eyes and smile at him"I love you to bro".
  
      " Alright " Jay slaps my back with his hand. "Come on we need to go in side". After laying on his chest and us laying in the car for ten minutes we finally get up and walk to the house. I look up at our two story house. Jay sighs when we reach the house and walk inside. "Your safe for now looks like mom had to work late today" he puts our bags on the table and sits on the couch with a bag of chips from the kitchen. I'm really surprised he's not fat eating like that. "You say that like its a bad thing Jay" I go up to him and take a hand full of chips and slouch next to him. "Look Jay can we not tell mom yet at least wait until the school tells her I want to enjoy my victory for now ok".
   Jay looks over at me and takes one chip and delicately chews on it then looks down at the bag of chips then looks back up, and then shoves a bunch of chips in his mouth with out saying anything and then looks away. Okkk "ok welp I'll just take that as a maybe". I get up of the couch,grab my bag and make my way up the stairs to my room. I open the door and smell the aroma of my room. I shut the door and walk over to my drawing desk. I drop my bag on my chair them nock off mt shoes,grab my phone and earbuds and head for my bed. I pop my earbuds in and listen to my music.

    I love how im feeling right now like nothing is wrong and your just floating when your asleep. Nothing can go wrong when your asleep its just you and your imagination, that's usually were I get all my good drawing ideas from is from my dreams when I'm asleep. I hope I never wake up. My chest goes heavy and I start to breath really heavy all the sudden. " Beep.....Beep.....Beep" I hear that noise that machine you hear when your at the hospital and it let's you know there hearts still beating. "Beep.....Beep.....Beep".God I hate that noise. "Alex wake up" whoever that person is I already hate and will nit wake up. "Alex you have to wake up".I don't listen and just fall back to my slumber and will deal with the world later. I love procrastination.