Never Ending Lies

#2

    "Shughzzz" what the hell is that. It sounds like a cat dying slowly. Not that I would know.. . I shift in this very uncomfortable bed and block my ears. "ughzzzz" That noise sounds oddly familiar I wonder where I heard it." UGHHHZZZSH" Ok I guess that's my cue to wake up. I open my  eyes slowly to wake up. Everything is blurred around me from my eyes being shut from all that sleep. I blink my eyes a few times to get my vision back and take a look at my surroundings, to try and find that dying animal I was hearing.

    I stop at the chair beside me and know why it sounded so familiar. It was just Joe snoring. He's on one of those hospital beds that look very uncomfortable in the fetal position holding his legs because he is obviously to tall and big for it. Its weird that he looks so much more appealing when he's asleep, maybe its just that he not talking. 

     I look down at my hands and remembered all that happened. My moms dead. She's dead and now I have no one, I wish jay were here to be with me. It hurts so much. I bread in to a small sob. I can't believe this, why me why God do I have to be punished like this.  The worst part about this is I feel like I could have done something I mean maybe if I could have just tried to talk to her and maybe I could have saved her. I can feel all my heart come out as I sit and think.

     "Alex" I look over and see Joe sitting up from the chair and rubbing his eyes. I quickly wiped away my tears and looked the other direction. "Yeah" I try to say steadily,but it just comes out horse and rough on my throat. I hear Joe get up slowly and make his way over to the side of my bed. I finally look over and see him. He looks Down at me through his long lashes ,and I see a tear slide down his cheek. My heart breaks a little at this, it hurts so much. Its weird for me to understand him, he could be angry and aggressive one minute and then small and crying the next. I spread my arms out and beckon him on my bed next to me.

   I stroke his hair softly and hear him breath slowly. " I'm sorry Alex" why would he be sorry for me. " I'm sorry you ja e to go through this, you shouldn't have to go through this its not fair" his voice becomes rough and it sound a lot like he's getting angry. "Its ok I'm used to it im all right really" my voice comes out in a small cry. Its hard to say your ok when your not, I'm used to doing that a lot and I would think I would get good at it but now it just hurts to much to try.

      "I'm fine" I sob even harder. Joe shifts around and he pulls me in his arms. I cry in his arms and don't stop. "Just let it out" is all he says for the next five minutes. I'm used to this, Joe is always there for me even when I don't want him there.

     After my extreme sob session I finally feel like I can think with out crying." How long have I been in the hospital" I turn over and look at Joe." For a bout a day" he looks down in response. "What do I do now Joe" I whisper soft ,but enough for him to hear me." Well, I know you don't want to talk about it, but there are some investigators that want to ask you some questions, about ya know". I knew this was going to happen, I'm not going to start a big fit over it, it really is just there job to do this. The cops came to me and mom too when Jay died to." When do they want to question me" I ask joe leaning up ,while Joe gets up and walks to his bag. I'm assuming he probably stayed at the hospital over night to make sure I was ok." They said they wanted to ask you about all of it as soon as you woke up" I sighed in response. "But if you don't feel like it I could tell them"." No no I'll talk to them I guess" I stretch my arms over my head to get my bones crack. I look over at Joe and see him looking at his phone with frustration and maybe a little anger. "Is everything ok Joe" I ask, but he doesn't response just puts the phone to his ear and starts to walk out of the room." I'll be right back" he shuts the door with a slam. Ok someone had hit that time of the month again.

     While waiting on the bed a nurse walks in, and checks the machine with tube's connected to my arm. She seems nice, shes in a blue uniform and is wearing way to much makeup. "Ok so you have this to take in the morning and after noons" she instructs a bottle of medicine to me. "Then this at night before bed" she puts both bottles on the table.              

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The nurse walks out of the room after telling me the symptoms of the medicine that I'll take. After spotting my close on the other table in the room, Joe walks in and goes to his bag with a irritated look." Are you ok Joe " I ask him but he still doesn't answer me. He starts moving around and gathering all his cloths and stuff. Ok he's starting to piss me off. "Here" I look at him and he hands me my cloths. "Put them on now" I take them and get up to go to bathroom to get dressed.

    I wonder what his problem is, he never really gets mad at me. I think it had something to do with that call. Of course, I can't ask him I know I should ask more questions but the truth is I'm scared to find out. Its always been like that, not bothering to ask any questions of anything I don't understand for the sake of what might happen.

    I finish getting my clothes on I just need to put my shoes on. I walk out and see Joe holding my medicine. "Are these for you" he asks looking at me. "Yeah the nurse said I have to take those" he nods his head without another word and heads for the door. "Uhh Joe what about the investigators" he stops, turns and looks at me. " you can talk to them later alright now we need to leave here as soon as possible, ok so I'll go check you out and be back so be ready" and with that he leaves. I can't​ help but cry a little. I mean you would to if your mom dies and your best friend snaps at you for no reason.
      I wipe my tears away and put my shoes on. I can't help but feel it was something that happens with that phone call, I mean I'm no fool I can tell you it was something to do with that phone call, but I don't get what could make Joe mad right now.