Lost ( TaehyungXReader )

13. Ash

as time went by

everything was usual always in school

getting bullied...

You got kicked 

you got slapped 

you got bruised 

and the worst thing was 

they threw harmful words at you

You in the other hand 

were feeling weak

numb and couldn't defend yourself 

facing the hell was in front of you was too much to take

you couldn't take it but you knew it would be over soon

5 weeks later 

days always repeat 

getting bullied at school and after school seeing a heart breaking scene 

of a girl clinging to taehyung 

you couldn't bring yourself to say hi to him knowing that

you'll ruin his new life

this pass few days 

you couldn't breathe normal 

it would always be harder for you to breathe 

and you've became paler than snow even a polar bear's white coat can't compare to your 

pale white skin 

people would judge you for that 

and making you a great victim for bullies 

as much as you didn't want to admit it your leukemia had been progressing aggressively 

your aunt would convince you to go to get admit in a hospital in america 

but you wouldn't agree to it

you didn't want to leave all the good memories back here even if it's shared with 

your bad memories but you would shrugged it off

5 days later 

your getting weaker by seconds 

your on a eating disorder 

and your leukemia had gotten worse 

.

you are now heading to your house

you finally arrived and greeted by the sad lonely aura around

your lovable cousin had to go to a soccer training

and your aunt is busy with her business 

you grab a lighter 

you grab the letter from your drawer 

a letter from your admirer from back then 

and that admirer is now long gone 

you went to the balcony 

you sat down 

you lit the edge of the paper 

knowing it would burn 

and all the sad lies in it

now it was burnt and all the ashes was in your very hand 

you stood up and blew all the ashes away 

and now the air is taking the ashes away

you hope the air will take the ashed back to the owner