Stay with me

Five

I hate U I love U - gnash, Olivia O'Brien
In my veins - Andrew Belle
Confused - Oscar

LEA'S POV

My head was spinning and I felt like throwing up. The sun shone right through the window and I could hear the birds sing from distance. It was a beautiful morning beside my pounded hangover.

I turned around to face my original bedroom but instead I faced an unknown living room. Those light walls and furnitures weren't mine, nor were the couch I had slept in during the night.

I had to get out of here before who ever owned the apartment woke up. I got up from the bed and noticed that I still had my clothes on. Hopefully no harm had been done last night.

I walked through the door and into a hallway. The thin walls were painted in the darkest black and wooden furnitures in a shining white colour covered the empty walls. Who ever the person was, had a good taste in decorating and that was a fact.

I took a closer look at the pictures hanging on the walls. One picture in specific got my attention. A picture of this girl with her long dark hair and a bright smile which showed her teeth. She sat on a swing tied to the majestic tree behind her.

Suddenly it wasn't a stranger that lived in the apartment. I knew exactly who lived here because there could only be one person who still got a hold of that photo.

"You're already up, how are you feeling?" His raspy morning voice scared me as he sneaked up beside me.

"Harry", I mumbled and stared down on my feet, "you kept your promise."

He looked at the picture intensively like it was the first time, "I guess I did, didn't I?" A smile were tugging on his lips as he thought of the moment when he first took it but faded just as fast.

He stood in only a pair of boxers and a plane white t-shirt that showed off his muscular arms.

"You have a good taste in photography." I joked and stared him right in his emerald green eyes. The same eyes I had fallen in love with, all those years ago. It became harder to breathe by each step he took closer to my steaming body. His body were just a few inches far away from mine as he leaned closer and placed his lips against my earlobe.

"I made breakfast", and with that he left the room. My hand reached to the soft spot where his lips just been, and slightly touched the sensitive skin.

Oh boy.

The kitchen was decorated in light wooden benches with lacquered discs on top, windows with a view over the city and a jet black table.

His eyes watched me by every step I took before he looked away and locked his eyes on the empty plate in front of him. "Why did you bring me here?" I silently spoke, like it was some kind of spell cursed over these words.

"You were drunk and out of your mind." He sternly said as he tugged on the corner of his lips. I wanted to know the reason behind that, why he couldn't manage to leave me there. Why he chose me instead of someone else. After all I knew that he probably had personal experience with those which he didn't had with me. Actually it did surprise me that he hadn't done anything with me last night.

The breakfast was unbearable with silence so thick that you could hear a needle drop and the atmosphere so awkward that you could literally touch it. My mind kept telling me to run away and escape once and for all but my body ached because it craved him. It craved every single piece of him. Though he was the reason behind the pain that never loosened it's grip around me, there was this thing that got me so attached. The addiction of someone who's too dangerous for your own well being. But what doesn't kills you makes you stronger and maybe this was one of those moments? Maybe he was worth the shot.

I suddenly remembered how messed up things really were and I couldn't afford to risk anything. No matter how much I wanted to, I knew this, whatever it was, could never be reality. He were too fucked up and it seemed like whether he said or did anything, things tended to got even more messed up. But then again; I was so attached.

As if he had read my mind, he stood up and cleared his throat.

"Leave", he sternly said without giving me a single glance. "I want you to leave."

Something deep inside me told me to stay and don't let go of him. After all this was the first time in ages where I even got a change to talk to him, although it wasn't much of a conversation I had still missed him.

"For god sake Lea just leave me alone!" Those green eyes of his was staring right through me and I felt extremely noxious. But I couldn't move. My feet was glued to the floor as my mind told me to stay.

Don't let go.

"What is your fucking problem? Why can't you do as I say and fucking leave my apartment?" He was clearly annoyed at this point and when he cleansed his fists so tight that his knuckles slowly became more pale I knew I had been here for too long.

Without a word I turned around and made my way into the hallway. I could still feel his eyes burning on my back as I carelessly tied my shoes.

"Wait, Lea?" I turned around and couldn't help myself but to lowkey wish that he would ask me to stay.

"What?" I snapped as I tried to hide my excitement.

"Don't take this in a wrong way, but", he begun and nervously scratched his neck.

"But what Harry?"

"We shouldn't see each other again and even if we do, you don't know me. Got it?"

I felt my heart drop and my body slightly shaking because of all the emotions that brushed through me. Why did he act so weird all of a sudden?

"Whatever you say." I mumbled and closed the door behind me. Tears threatened to spill as I rushed down the stairs which felt like forever until I finally reached the exit. While outside I couldn't help myself any longer but to let the tears fall and my sobs escape my dry lips.

This was a mistake. It was a mistake to even think that it wasn't. God I felt so stupid. How could I even consider us two dating when I knew that big things were coming up, like collage for an example? If I wanted to make it to Harvard, boys couldn't be in my way. Specially not boys like Harry Styles.

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