Here is the first part to "Suicide Love Letter." I am going to go back in the past now with the story so you can see the events that lead up to the letter. BTW, this is a girl narrating.
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"Ding ding! Ding ding!"
"Shit, I'm going to be late!!!" I think to myself.
I have overslept by 15 minutes. I know that 15 minutes may not seem like a lot of time for someone, but when it comes to mornings and school, it is. I hesitate to get out of bed. It's cold outside and I don't want to have to wake up. I finally force myself out of bed and begin getting ready for school.
I have to take my dog outside first. He isn't a big fan of the snow and cold either. He is too small to navigate his way through the foot and a half deep snow, so I have to keep a pathway leading to the backyard for him. I let him outside and make my way into the bathroom to begin my day.
I don't wear much make-up so I just put on some eyeliner and mascara. I pull my long blonde hair up into a ponytail with 2 bobby pins holding my bangs back. I rarely ever bother getting dressed up nice for school. There is no point in it. I go to a small school so who cares. Everybody knows everybody there and everyone's business as well. I finish up in the bathroom and go and let my dog back inside. I shutter from the crisp, cool air that is let into the house once I open the door. Of course, Bambi is ready to be let inside. He runs into the house and shakes all the snow off of his fur. I don't brush the snow back outside, I leave it there to melt. What do I care if it melts? I slowly make my way back into my tiny bedroom. I search through my clean clothes for a shirt and some jeans. I don't care much about what shirt I am wearing since I always have a jacket on.
When I'm finished getting ready, I lock Bambi in my room and grab the keys to my car. I brace myself for the chilling winter air outside. I twist the doorknob slowly and pull open the heavy sticking door. A cold air comes in through the door. I quickly walk out to my car and open the door. Putting my keys into the ignition, I feel my phone vibrate. "Hey, you're running late. Where the hell are you?!" I read off my phone. The text is from my best friend Neisha. I pick her up for school everyday, so if I'm late, then so is she. I know she is going to kill me when I get there. I shut my phone and ignore the text. I pull out of the driveway and quickly make my way to her house.
When I pull into her driveway, I can see her looking out of the window, waiting for me. I unlock the doors while she runs to the car and climbs in.
"Why the hell are you late!?!" she yells at me.
I ignore her and pull out of the driveway and drive towards the school. It's only a 10 minute drive to school and we made it there on time. We both climb out of the car and walk towards the smoker's area. I know what you're thinking, why are people smoking at school? We are allowed to as long as we are off school property and on public property. I pull out my pack of Newport 100s and give one to Neisha and pull one out for myself. She lights hers.
"Lemme use your lighter. You know I can never find mine in this purse." I tell her.
She hands me her lighter and I light my cigarette. I turn around to watch and see who is arriving to school. Someone catches my eye. She isn't new here, but why haven't I noticed her like I do now. She isn't the most beautiful girl in the whole world, but to me, she is beyond it.
