My Story

Loneliness

Loneliness... it's all I've ever know and it's all I ever will know. New school, new territory, new bullies, new breakdowns. Freshmen? More like fresh meat for the predators of the school to demolish like there's no tomorrow, and if there is a tomorrow, they only spared you to make you suffer slower than others. The predators have sharp fangs that glisten with fresh insults for its next prey but as much as they chase you, you can't hate them even if you try. Predators were prey once but with the stories behind their cold, soulless eyes, they hide the pain. They hide the things they've seen, the things they've been through, and you start to see they're just like you.

School has been going good I guess. Nobody seems to notice me which is nice but I feel lonely again... Axel promised to be here, we would walk in the doors together, we would attend our classes together, we would have a blast in high school, but he broke his promise. My older sister doesn't even look at me when I'm around her friends at lunch so I just sit outside underneath the warm sun, it's rays somehow putting peace in my mind. I don't care if I don't have friends anymore because friends always leave you. They say they're there for you but they're lying. They know you're going to explode one day so they say things just so you don't. Friends don't actually care about you, you care about you. Nobody's gonna watch after you forever but there are those special friends, the ones you can actually trust and tell anything to. Axel was that friend but he left me all alone with nobody to talk to anymore. I don't know why he left without saying anything to me but I know that when I leave I'll tell those around me my story. Even you, the reader, will know my story and will understand what it's like to be lonely. Truly lonely. I will write notes to you, notes that will depict my emotions, my thoughts, even my tears.