School 2017: My World Outside the Box [Taglish]

Chapter 1: The Reason Why I Hate Mondays

*FLASHBACK*

In a cold breeze of early spring, the warmth inside me never failed to fade and the blissful feeling I felt since I met him was one of the most unforgettable moment I had.

I am on my fourth grade and he was my classmate when we were in public elementary school.

I saw him walking happily with his friends near the school's gate while I'm hiding on the school's locker waiting for him.

I gathered all my strength and ran towards him. I stood up in front of him while his friends were staring at me.

At first, I was thinking of giving up because I was intimidated by the other kids who were also staring at me aside from his friends.

But I managed to look at him and told him the words I've wanted him to hear, "Alam mo, you were so cool and friendly.. Matalino tapos sobrang bait pa.. Gusto na kita noon pa.. Please consider my feelings for you.."

I was so nervous. Every word I've said makes my heart throbbed even more. I clenched my teeth as I waited for his response.

"Tol.. Kung ako sa'yo, papayag na ako..", said the boy behind him.
Another friend of him said, "Tol, sa tingin mo? Don't you think she's kind of the stereotype girls who already confessed to you?"

As I listen to his friends arguing about my confession, he didn't speak anything and he just stared at me.

It seems like he was thinking through about the situation were in. I started to feel conscious and agitated as the people grew around us.

"Hoy Travis! Bingi ka ba? Kanina pa kaming may sinasabi sa'yo..", one of his friend said.

He looked at his friends and said, "Tss.. Naku naman.. Why will I waste my time to an ugly girl like her?"

I was too shocked and all the people around us saying, "Hindi mo ba nakinig ang sinabi ko ha? PANGIT!"

"PANGIT! PANGIT! PANGIT! PANGIT! PANGIT!", they shouted.

Devastated, depressed and traumatized. I was in extreme emotional and mental breakdown. The blissful feeling and the beautiful scenery of the moment turned into grey.

What I did was run away from them until I ended up in the school's garbage bin. Then I saw an empty box and put in on my head.

The pain welling up pierced through my heart was so unbearable and in that moment I hid myself inside my world, a box that masks all of my pain and sufferings of my past.

*FLASHBACK END*

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Hello. Hindi nga pala 'Box Girl' ang pangalan ko. Czarina. Czarina Jade Choi. Isang 19 years old na pwede mong sabihing isa sa mga pinakaweirdong babae dito sa lugar namin.

Ever since that day, I don't took of the box of my head except when taking a shower and bedtime. In fact, iginawa pa ako ng younger brother ko ng customized box na sakto ang butas para sa mga mata ko.

Mas kumportable akong mag-isa. Gamit ang laptop o ang phone ko at nagpopost sa sarili kong blog sa internet kesa ang makihalubilo sa maraming tao. Biglang nawalan ng power.

“Pa! Papa! Papa nawalan ng tayo ng power..”, sabi ko.

Naglalakad si Papa dahan-dahan habang hawak ang flashlight. “Wala nga tayong power.. Alam ko..”, bulong pa niya.

“Bakit nga po nawalan?”

“Nakalimutan ko palang magbayad ng bill natin..”