Grey's anaomy: A Calzonia life!

Chapter 18: What the heck do I do???

Arizona's Point of view:

I am just sitting here with Calliope in-between my legs on one knee with a ring in her hand. What she said it was soooo true not only for her but for me. I haven't had one full goodnights rest since 5 years ago when I was sleeping in her arms. I missed her soooo much then seeing her everyday at work. Knowing she was with someone else killed me. The only reason I knew she was with someone else is because I would ask Addison. She said Callie and Karen where a cute couple. That they were almost perfect for each other. Addison even said Karen asked Callie to marry her and that is when Callie broke things off, but this time she had a reason she said no. Addison and everyone at work said Callie said no because she was still in love with me. I wanted to believe it wasn't true and that day at work when Addison told me why she said no. I asked Callie to watch the twins that night so I could go out and get drunk. Then the next day when Callie dropped the kids off she saw I was in pain and gave me a hug and the sparks were still there. Then a couple minutes ago we kissed and now she is on one knee asking for my hand in marriage.

The only question I had was the ring the ring where and when did she get it. I just look at her I look into her eyes. She is just god I wish I could say yes. I know if I did everyone would be happy I would even be happy, but she broke my heart and neither of us can change that. I see a little blonde head in the corner looking at us and I knew this was her plan all along. I knew now she knew I couldn't say no to Calliope she knew something had to bring us together and what other than our children did we have in common. I look at Emily then back at Callie and finally speak.

"I am sorry Calliope I cant." I say then get up to leave but stop when I feel a hand on my hand to stop me. She turns me around and kisses me. This time not waiting for me to say yes for her to come in but she just goes for it. I knew she wanted me to remember our last kiss together and at this pace I wont forget it ever. Callie wraps her arms around my waist and I jump up into her arms like we did so long ago. I wrap my arms around her head and let her carry us to our. I mean her room. Once in her room we waste no time in getting undressed. We both crave each others touch and nothing is going to stop us from this task that faces us. Callie pushes me back so I fall on the bed and she smiles at me.

Before she comes down with me I get a good look at her and I notice how her body has changed. I knew she lost weight because that Karen chick said she should but I didn't know she had a hard stomach now and she looked even more breath taking. She came down on top of me and kissed me it wasn't a hard kiss or a slow kiss it was a kiss with passion. I missed this. I missed us. I missed everything to do with her.

After 5 hours of non-stop love making we finally laid there. We laid with our legs tangled together and me laying halfway on and halfway off of her in her arms. With her rubbing circles on my arm. I just smiled even know she couldn't really see me.

"What are you smiling about baby?" She asked. Baby she called me baby.

"I was just thinking how we use to do this everyday we could until you know and how I miss being in your arms. I just wish we could be together again like old times." I say about to cry thinking about everything that has happened.

"Yeah I wish we could be like this all the time no one else around no one to judge." Calliope says." Arizona?" She ask.

"Yes Calliope what's up?" I say.

"Do you ever regret anything. anything at all like having the twins at the age of 18?" She ask me. I shot right up and look at her. I see her there is no hurt or anything in her eyes. She doesn't want to hurt me but I know it is an honest question.

"Sometimes yes I do. Sometimes I think if we never thought of getting pregnant at such a young age that we would have been together threw high school. Then how we would still be together then how I think that if the twins were never born sometimes I think we still wouldn't be together because Callie we were 18 when I had them. If they never happened I would have never had to be a mom so soon and I could had been a stupid 20 year old but we had them and I couldn't be a stupid 20 year old. What about you do you think about not having them?" I ask her.

"No I am glad we have them. i might not have been there when they were 1-5 but I am here now. I just wish that we would be a family all 4 of us and maybe other babies but I mostly wish i had you." She tells me kissing me. I go to get up and I see what time it is. I grab all of my stuff and get up and walk out the door.

"Arizona?" she asked I look back at her and she sees worry on my face I know she does she can and always will be able to read me." What went wrong what went wrong that day. The day you asked me to marry you? I know I said no I know I did. But if you would have let me talk to you that day in the O.R. you would have known I didn't mean it. I said no because I wanted to be the one to ask you to marry me. You had the kids you always wear the dresses and everything. You were and are the girl in the relationship. I am the guy. I am the one who holds you in their arms. I am the one who gives you my jacket. I did all the guy stuff and I wanted to be the one to ask for your hand in marriage. That is why I said no. I didn't say no because I didn't love you I said no because I needed to be the one to ask." Callie said to me we stare at each other for what seems like a short time then I look at the clock and see I have an hour before my plan leaves.

"I am sorry Callie but I have to go if I don't want to be late. I love you." I say the walk out the house door and into my car. I left and never looked back.