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First Kiss!!!-Chapter 3

Oli's p.o.v

Kells let me stay over at his again tonight. I mean yesterday was so, awkward. We had to patch things up. Why it was so awkward, cause I fucking love none other then Kellin himself. I haven't always liked him and I'm not gay, not even bi. For maybe 3 or so years now I've felt something for Kellin I couldn't for anyone else. Yet he's crushing on co workers and sleeping with students. He doesn't have any clue. No I'm not gay Kellin but yes I'm in love with you. I don't know exactly what I did while I was drunk, but I woke up with him in my arms. We wouldn't have bonked cause Kellin remembers last night and he hasn't hinted at it. He wouldn't have let me bonk him. Right now we were acting like the kids we were and playing board games while watching tv. "Haha give me fifty Olober Psycho." I rolled my eyes and threw the money at him. "I'm not a stripper you know." He laughed. He'd seemed a little sad and weird earlier but he was okay again now. He rolled the dice and went around the board. "Yes I get two hundred bucks bitch!" He got way too into these games, like it was life or death. He didn't get like rage quit angry or anything. Just sad or really happy. He always won though, I might have once against him. "Oli money?!" He made grabby hands at me. I passed him the money, since I was the banker. "You want something to drink?" I looked over at him and bit my lip.

"Sure." He stood up and brought back some beers. He handed me one. I didn't hit it too much but Kells seemed to be drinking fast and lots. He wasn't usually like this. Before he could open another I stopped him. I sat next to him with a sigh. "Kells, what's wrong?" He sighed.

"Nothing." I gave him a doubtful look. "Let's just watch a movie." He jumped on the couch and patted the spot next to him. I sat down and he snuggled into my side. I felt my heart lift. We watched a movie and when it ended we decided to go to bed. Kellin stripped down to sweatpants and I went in boxers. "Night Oli."

"Night Kells." I listened to his breathing as I fell asleep.

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I woke up to a kick in the back. "Kells what the-"

"Stop!" He screamed. I flipped over to face him to see he was still asleep. "Get off!!!" His breathing was heavy and his body was thrashing about. "I don't want this." He began crying.

"Kellin...Kellin wake up mate." I shook him lightly and he screamed more. "Wake up!" I yelled. I didn't know what to do but he woke up. Sweat coating him. He looked up into my eyes, whimpering lightly. He latched onto my arm and broke down crying. I ran my fingers through his hair. "Kellin what's wrong?" He just continued to cry. When he finally calmed down he sat up rubbing his eyes.

"Sorry." He muttered.

"Don't be sorry...was it just a dream or...something else?" He stayed silent. "Please, talk to me." He sighed.

"Justin, kinda forced himself on me yesterday, it's stupid though-"

"What do you mean, what the fuck did he do to you?!"

"Oli it's-"

"No, Kells tell me please."

"Well he kinda just, he was kissing me and I was telling him to stop. Then I started moaning by accident and he got on top of me. He started taking my clothes off and I told him I didn't give consent and I was scared but he wouldn't stop. Then I screamed so he got off and ran away." He spoke quietly, but the more he spoke the more his voice shook. "I'm okay...it just I don't know...I felt kinda powerless." I hugged him, playing with his sweet smelling hair. We stayed like this for a long time. "Oli?"

"Yeah?"

"I don't know, thank you."

"Why?"

"Cause you're the person who means the most to me in this world." My heart lifted then fell. He'd never mean it how I wanted him to. He ended up falling asleep in my arms and I fell asleep listening to his breath again.