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Space Out

Why is it that every time that I SPACE OUT it's during some what important parts of life. Like sometimes I'll SPACE OUT during an important lesson for my AP class. Or sometimes when my sister says something to me and then she'll ask me about it and I won't know what to say because I SPACED OUT.  Yet, there is sometimes when I'll SPACE OUT and ponder about my past because I have a knack of doing the wrong things, and I look off into the distance and other cliche stuff happens.  

Then there'll be times when I see people SPACE OUT and they often have the most dazed look once they get back on track.  That'll be because either they're getting yelled at or they're getting to the dark side of their pondering. Some of them recover in enough time to reply or understand what is happening within their surroundings. Others aren't so lucky. What's the worst thing about SPACING OUT? When you just happen to stare at a person... and then they see you watching them. That's the moment that makes everyone want to die. You're legit like "oml I wanna die someone please kill me NO i wasnt staring at you I just SPACED OUT no stop it oh wait now that I realize it you're actually pretty cute but oml Im so sorry for staring I didn't mean to OML this is so awkward please if there is a god out there  kill me now"

Then their different types of SPACING OUT, for example as said before the one I experience most is of my regrettable past. For me I always think of how much I need to change as a person and how much I need to stop being to damn gullible. Then I continue to contemplate about how I already know that I won't be able to fix that until I have truly fallen down and how even though that would happen my horrible habits would not allow me to do such thing. Other people have the happy version of SPACING OUT. You know, everyone has had one good experience of SPACING OUT. Like when you think about putting on your favorite pj's and binge watch the next hit tv show like Stranger Things or Riverdale. Or when you think about you being with your crush or having straight A's and not having to worry about paying for college tuition. Those kinds of SPACING OUTs. Especially after a long day of work/school/practice or even just for the sake of you doing what you want to do.

A/N: I know I know I don't really like author notes either but I just wanted to say that if any of you peeps want to recommend a word or a phrase that you want me to write about my experience or my opinion on it, it's A-OKAY to do so.  So yeah, that was all my friends, remember to vote and comment on what you think about my chapters, do I need improvement, should I write longer chapters, etc. etc. Also I want to apologize for not keeping up with my story I really have gone through a lot through these past months. But on the bright side, my harsh experiences have given me better content to write.