Unbroken (Jelsa) Book 2✔️

Chapter 16

Elsa Elisabeth Moon's P.O.V.

"And what will be your choice? You don't have to choose right away, but if you are ready than that is all right too" James said to me. I know that I don't have to choose now but I feel like I owe it to someone but I have no idea who that someone is. I need to do the best thing for my kingdom even if I have to do something that I am not comfortable with. I look up to him and meet his eyes, I know it is wrong to do an eye contact but I need to do this.

"I feel like I have made my choice but I'm not sure if my head agrees, I just have this feeling that is telling me something but I'm not sure if I can listen. It is like my head and this feeling are fighting for something but I'm not entirely sure what it is" I finally admit. But it is the truth, my head is telling me one thing but this strange feeling that I have is telling me something completely opposite of it, I really want to understand it a little more, I really do but that gets harder as this feeling grows more and more.

"I know exactly what you're feeling, it is better that you figure it out by your self. And don't be mad at me for not telling you, in fact someday you'll thank me for it. If you really want to know what your heart is choosing than just clear your mind and listen to this new us unwelcome feeling that is running wild through your body. Your brain is trying to stop this from happening but you just need will and everything will be all right, trust me" He said, I do trust him. A lot actually but the thing is that I do not trust myself.

Can I even trust myself? Yeah, I admit that I don't take the best choice in the world, I think that I take the worst of them but that does not mean that I can't take good one's. I don't think the choice that this feeling has made is a bad thing, somewhere deep down I just know it. All right I need to clear my head just like he told me to do. How will I do that exactly? He never told me the secret behind it so it's all up to me now. Somehow I just know this won't work, I know because now I don't have one feeling that I need to understand, I have two of them.

"You can do it, just focus" James said, he clearly know that I am still struggling with the fact that I have no idea how to do this, I don't think that I have ever cleared my mind before and I don't even know if it will hurt or not but I hope it does hurt, a lot actually. I haven't felt pain in a long time and every one of my scars have been healed by magic so there are no sign of cutting at all. I fucking hate that, I wanted to have these scars. They remind me of how ugly I truly am.

"Elsa, you are overthinking this. I know your head is full of something, even if I don't know what it is but clearing your mind means that you need to push all the thoughts into another place in your head. For example in the back of your head" he told me. He knows that I am thinking too hard, it he does not know what I am thinking, that is a good thing. Now, how will I just push everything into the back of my head? I have tried that and they just come pumping back into my mind? I'm pretty sure that I need a map for that.

All right here goes nothing. I take a deep breath and hold it in and suddenly I feel my mind getting lighter than it was before, I think it is working. I realize that I am still holding my breath and I exhale. I just cleared my mind but who know for how long it will stay like that so I better get started now. Somehow I can hear my heartbeat and it is a wonderful feeling, wait this is the feeling that I have been trying to understand all this time. It is my heart but what is my heart trying to tell me? I'm not good at listening to it.

"I know you have cleared your mind and you can hear your own heartbeat but it is time to take this to another level, focus on if the heart speaks to you. That may sound crazy but the heart can talk to you, only if you listen. The heart may talk in riddles but you'll know what I means, or you'll ask me and I will tell you, that is one way but I think that you can figure it out by yourself" He said, all right. Who knew that the heart could say riddles? That is just something new to me.