No L.o.v.e

3.

Aaliyah

Waking up besides my vibrating phone I didn't even bother to look at it. If it wasn't my Mother I didn't want to talk. I fell asleep crying last night thinking about everything.

"Hey dad." I smiled looking at the picture hanging on the wall. 6 years ago my dad was arrested for conspiracy to murder. I remember the day like it was yesterday.
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"Aaliyah I need you to put shoes on right now" My mom spoke frantically

"Where we going?"

"Your Grandmother's house. She called me, Your dad was yelling in the background. I don't know what's going on"

I ran to my room as fast as I could to get my shoes and made my way back to the living room. Then we made our way outside. It took us about 5 minutes to get to my Grandmother's house.

Driving down the street I seen a couple of police cars. I didn't understand what was happening until I seen police handcuffing my Father. I just had a feeling that this time he wasn't getting out anytime soon. My mom made a U-turn because she didn't want me to see him like that.

The ride home was silent. I didn't cry I was just in shock. As soon as my mom parked the car I hopped out, not realizing I would have to wait for my mom to unlock the door. I waited for her to walk up the steps of our house. I tried to avoid eye contact with her.

I made my way to my room and plopped down on my stomach and began to ball my eyes out. I was so close to my dad and all that was about to change for me.

I sat up and tryed to wipe away all my tears because I heard my mom coming towards my room. I started rubbing my eyes to make it seem like it itch.

"Babygirl you hungry?"

" No I'm fine. " I said weakly

" Lili come here" She demanded

I got up still rubbing my eyes.

"Stop rubbing your eyes. Whats wrong with you?

" Nothing" my voice a little shakey

You been crying?" My mom asked

I shook my head no. Immediately after I started crying.

My mom grabbed me and started crying herself. Making me cry even harder.

"It's going to be okay. I promise"
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I noticed a couple of tears falling as I reminisced. I made my way to my closet stripping out of my clothes from the day before. I grabbed my towel and wrapped it on my naked body. I turned on the water so it can warm up. I walked back to my room to get my speaker and iPad and hooked it up on Bluetooth. Playing Jheno aiko's spotless mind letting the lyrics sink in

"Change is inevitable
Why hold on to what you have to let go of?
Like, did I really break your heart?
Was it all my fault?
If you don't knock it off
You know like I know where this was headed

I'm a wanderer
I'm a wanderer, baby
I'm a wanderer
I'm a wanderer

Lani Kai was nice
Turquoise seas and ocean breezes
Loving you was nice
But it's a new day, a new season
I've been sad inside
And he could see it, picked up your pieces
We are just alike
And alright, alright, alright

He's a wanderer
He's a wanderer, baby
He's a wanderer
He's a wanderer

I started as a love song
24 years in the making
Moving from place to place and
I never really settled down
Without a place to call home
I got so used to the changes
Moving from stranger to strangest
You should face it
I am crazy