Hero // Ethan and Grayson Dolan

chapter 18 ~ again

"I'm so sorry" I whimper.

"You know what Brooklyn, I know that you're sorry and I know that you love me but I can't believe you just said that. Especially after what you did behind my back." Ethan says, looking at the road and not making eye contact with me.

"I'm so-"

"I know, I know but if you would've told me when you started having feelings for Grayson I would've supported you. But you didn't. Without telling me, you slept with my twin brother and then dated him without even considering my feelings."

I said nothing. I just looked straight ahead. He's right. I should've told him.

"Then you lie that this child is mine. Why? What did I do to you? Why would do this to me?"

"You did nothing E" I stutter.

"Don't call me that." Ethan snaps.

"I can call you whatever I want." I raise my voice. I don't know what I'm doing - but whatever it is, I have to stick with it now.

"You are the last person who should be yelling at me right now." he says calmly.

"Why? Why am I the one who can't do anything? I'm not your kid I can do whatever the hell I want!" I'm starting to yell more now. I'm fucking mad.

"Exactly, that's why we're arguing in the first place. This mentality of yours that made you fuck my brother."

Anger rises inside of me. I can't take it anymore.

"THANKS FOR SAVING ME, ETHAN, BUT RIGHT NOW I WOULD RATHER BE DEAD THAN IN THIS SITUATION-"

"SHUT THE FUCK UP." Tears fall down his face.

He seethes as he slams his foot on the accelerator. Right through the red light. A car is coming at full speed on Ethan's side and connects with the drivers car door. I black out.

...

I look around and all I see are nurses pushing the gurney I'm lying in. I don't know what's going on as I thrash around trying to escape the restraints on my wrists. But this feels all too familiar as I realise why I'm here.

"ETHAN" I yell out his name. I need to know if he's okay. There's no response. I black out again.

...

I blink as my blurry vision becomes clear again.

I realise I'm in my hospital room with Grayson holding my hand. He's sitting down on a chair next to me.

"Are you okay?" he asks me, as he strokes my hair.

I take a deep breath. "I'm okay."

Dread sets over me as I look at Grayson's red eyes and tear stained face. "Is Ethan okay?" I ask, knowing the answer.

"No." Grayson says. He closes his eyes and shakes his head continuously, as he starts crying softly again.

We're silent for a minute, except for the sounds of Grayson sobbing quietly.

"He didn't make it."

My heart stops. 

"No no no" I break into an uncontrollable sob. I can barely breathe. 

He didn't deserve this.

"The g-glass from the w-windscreen went r-right through his r-right l-lung and he had internal b-bleeding." Grayson can barely talk. He keeps stuttering through long sobs. I can feel the hot tears fill up my eyes, my throat closing tight and my face turning as white as a sheet.

"And this is all my fucking fault. Ethan should've let me die when he rescued me from the first crash. He never would've been in this position. I should've died and not him. I'm the reason he's fucking dead."  I say aloud, mumbling to myself before breaking down entirely. The tears spill over and flow down my face, one after another, soon turning into a flowing stream of sorrow that drips from my pointed chin onto my hospital gown. I'm breathing all wrong, and beginning to gasp like there's not enough oxygen.

"FUCKING DISCONNECT ME." I yell at Grayson. "GET THIS OXYGEN OUT OF ME, I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE."

"Don't be ridiculous." Grayson just sits there crying into his hands, not budging a single bit.

"GRAYSON, I FUCKING WILL."

I pull the cannula out of my nose furiously, and I'm seriously struggling to breathe now. I pant violently.

"I'm finally about to die!" I screech out loud.

My vision gets blurry. The last thing I see is Grayson suddenly jumping up in shock, connecting my cannula to my nose, and rushing out of the room in search for a doctor. I black out, again.

...

When I open my eyes again, disappointment floods over me. I really wanted that to be the end.

But I suddenly look down at my belly and realise I'm not carrying a baby anymore. My body starts to tremble.

"Where is our baby? Is everything okay?" I say quickly, because Grayson is still sitting in the same spot from last time. I pray for a positive response.

"Yeah, we've got a beautiful baby boy." Grayson says softly, as he smiles through his tears. He's still been crying. But I'm so happy to see his smile. It gives me hope."

"Where is he?"

"He's in ICU because he was premature. He has your eyes."

I slouch down in my bed, as a wave of relief washes over me. I can't wait to hold ... "Grant." I say, thinking aloud.

"What?" Grayson asks, confused. He wipes his eyes with his sleeve.

"Lets name our little boy Grant."

Grayson smiles again. His eyes glisten from the tears. "I love it."

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