"Umm... Hey Thomas" I thought it was going to be Kayla and i thought Thomas was at work. "Aren't you supposed to be at work today?"
"Yeah, but i called in sick, i want to sort things out with you Sapph, can i come in and can we talk?" He replies and its obiously cold outside what was i thinking, gosh it's still awkward between us since we got back together and its been like a week... Then again, we haven't texted that much since it either. I move aside from the door and he comes in the door.
"Well... There's nothing to talk about, we were taking a break and you desided to date another girl and you guys kissed and then we got back together." I say, mostly because i just wanted to see Kayla because i was already having a bad day.
"No that's not all, i want to sort it out so that we don't end up fighting everyday in the long run, I want it to be how it used to be, i know that what i did was wrong but i can't go back, Sapph, or else i would and the day that you broke up with me i wouldn't have let you go, i would have come to your house and hugged you because i know that you didn't want it. I know that you wish that it never happened as do i. We can't change the past we can only try and make the future better."
I was totally speechless... He had said it all. And it was true i wish that i had never broken up with him, i wish i was never stupid enough to let him feel that way. I know what to say now
"It wasn't your fault if thats what your getting at, it was completely my fault----"
"No i caused you to do it" He had said interupting me.
"Can i finish?" He nods "Ok, where was i.... Oh yeah, It's not your fault, It's mine, and you cant make me do anything. It was all my choosing and what a bad choice it was. We need to get over it together but in order for us to do that i have to get over the fact that you kissed another girl. And i dont think that i will ever do that."
"Yeah well you danced with another guy" He interupted me again.
"Please let's not fight right now, im already having a bad day and Kayla was going to come over then you showed up and she didnt and gahhhhhhh..... Anyways..."
Thomas is texting...... I wonder who, i hope its not that girl... Oh no, he's smiling.
"Who are you texting"
"Oh no one"
"Oh......" and again with the almost crying, gosh im such a whimp.
"It's just Hannah..."
"Oh....'Just Hannah' the girl that you dated when we were on a break, the girl that you kissed the girl that you probably were going to replace me with if i never asked you out again." And i'm crying, thats all it took, him texting her again.
He puts his arms around me as i sob into his shirt, "Shhhhh... Shhh. Sapph It'll be okay, we'll be okay, Ill stop texting her if you want. Shhhhh...." I hug him, i miss his hugs, i miss his warmth.
"C C C Can yyyyou sttay theee nighttt?" I ask still a little stuttery from crying that hard.
"I can, i just have to tell my room mate that i wont be home so he doesn't worry."
My breath is still shaky but i just need him here with me right now, I can't spend another night alone, Who knows what will happen.
