To:Him,He knows who he is.
And when you find me dead don't act like you care. It's funny how when you cut or self harm people say they care about you which I'm sure they do. Those people are forgiven and they cared but you didn't I needed you and you didn't care because you were annoyed by me.Am I right? You hated the fact that I loved you and that you were everything to me when I was nothing to you. You never cared,you never noticed,because it wasn't your problem right? Well how does it feel to know you played a role in this. I did it because I never felt worth something I never felt good enough to be on this planet. And now that I'm dead you care! Where were you when it was happening I was getting worse and you didn't even know. I put on a smile every day when inside I was dying. Every time I looked at you I felt like cutting or stabbing my self because I knew that I would never be happy with the person I wanted most in the world to love me for me and not think I'm annoying.Do you know how much it hurt to see you every day and every time you saw me have you look at me like I'm something in your life you wish you could just throw away. We'll I hope your finally happy! I'm sorry I annoy you with my sorrow and depression and love for you. But don't pin this all on yourself because it's not your fault it's mine because I had to fall I'm love with someone I can't have. Because that's what we do right we fall in love with people we can't have . It's funny how the people that want love the most will never get it and that the girl who smiles every day is the one who was dying the most inside. And now I'm here in the ground and it's not your fault it's mine. It's always been me. So go back to your life with the perfect girl, with the perfect body. I'm happy you found a girl who can smile for you because I can't. Not anymore. I'm done trying to get your attention. I'm done putting on that fake smile. I'm done hiding my scars that you helped cause. Most importantly I'm DONE with YOU. I have two more things for you. One is Goodbye and the other is this.
And when you find me
I'll surely be dead
Don't worry to much
I didn't bloody the bed
Don't cry my love
The pains is gone
I truly am sorry
That's the darkness finally won
I'm not coming back
Carry on about your day
I'm sure there's a lot more
You attention can pay
Good bye my love
I wish you the best
I'm sorry I had to do this
But at least in at rest
Good Bye.
---------------------------------------------------------------------- Sorry if it's to short. I don't know the name of the person who made the poem because I got it from a friend so ya I can't give credit sorry but I hope you like the ch. This isn't really a journal entry type thing but I thought I'd just put it in why not.
