February 24th,2014
So toady I figured it was time. Time to get over him not because I want to but because I need to. I've liked him for almost about a year now , I know that's awhile but I just liked him so much. Wow just said LIKED .
Here's the hard part I've actually tried this before with the same guy I've tried to get over him but I just can't for some reason. Every time I see him it just makes it harder. Like today for example we're in the same grade so we have the same lunch. To day the announcer lady called his table to leave the cafeteria first and he looked toward my direction and I saw him he looked so perfect. The reason why it's so hard is every time I see him I fall in love again with him. The thing that I'm questioning is I've never talked to this boy,so what can I be In love with right? All I know about him is that he has the most perfect smile a human can,when he laughs It's the most beautiful sound,his eyes sparkle like the ocean they so beautiful and pure,his hair is a blond as an angles but some is lightly dark like the devil, I love his personality and how he can make me smile for no reason and how he can make me laugh like no one else can. Even when he's acting totally stupid he's still perfect and funny to me. This is just all the stuff I can describe while just being in English with him for 6th grade and only talking to him like once. I know I'm to young to know exactly what love is but I'm in love with him and the saddest part is he doesn't even know. He doesn't even know I exist and he doesn't care he give less of a crap about me I annoy him like the fact that I like him annoys him. And that tares me apart inside because he doesn't want me to like him but I can't help who I fall in love with it's not my fault. The worst part is he's Mormon which means he can't date until he's 16 but what does they matter I'm sure he only wants skinny girls I and pretty ones just like any guy. They only see your weight,body, and looks they don't see the inside or your personality. I fell in love with someone I can't have how dumb is that I've been trying to love on for that reason ,but..........but..........I just can't. It's fells so hard and I can't do it even though I know he doesn't care,like,or even notice me I still have some hope but I know that's really stupid of me. Well let's just see where I end up with this "moving on".
QUOTES FOR THIS CHAPTER:
- We fall in love with people we can't have
-I need to forget about the boy who forgot about me
-It's hard to forget someone who have you so much to remember
-Moving on is easier said than done
-Why am I so afraid to lose you when your bit even mine
-At times you mean nothing to someone who means everything to you
-Before I met you I never knew what it felt like to look at someone and smile for no reason
-I will never forget the moment I realized I love you 💔💧
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- So I decided to add a few quotes for every chapter that relate to it,just because I really like quotes and think they would be nice to use for this story.
