Wonderless

chapter 33

{VIC POINT OF VIEW}

Kells fell back asleep after that. I love her. wow. that seems so natural to think. I don't know. Kellin always came off as rather feminine. I think she just needed to figure it out? Way. is she. trans like officially or still. I don't know. I don't care I love her regardless.

I heard my bed room door open. I looked up. I was in bed on the side so I could see my door.

My brother walked in.

"Hey mike what do you need?" I asked.

"I was gonna ask if I you could help me with homework but I see you have your hands and arms full with a sleeping Kellin" Mike said.

"Well, yeah duh. But like what was the thing you needed help with?" I asked.

"math" Mike said.

"Uh. ask mom if she can help you. We both know I suck at math." I said.

"She is cooking and said ask you and she want to know if Kellin is staying for dinner" Mike said.

"Probably. Depends on if Kellin Is hungry" I said.

"More like if you can get Him to eat" Mike said.

I cringed at mike saying "he" It's already bothering to hear kells get misgendered but I am not gonna correct people till kellin says something.

"What?" I asked.

"Oh come on. Kellin hardly ever eats. Even I know that. Everyone at the lunch table knows that. Kellin never eats lunch and the few times the group goes out to dinner Kellin never comes or meets us after and I hear Alex and Tay asking if he as eaten recently. He doesn't star himself does he?" Mike asked.

I hadn't realized Kellin was awake but.

"Mike. My eating habits aren't your concern. thank you" Kellin said.

"Okay man whatever you say" Mike said defensively.

"girl" kellin muttered.

"what?" Mike asked.

"Girl" Kellin said.

"What?" Mike asked again.

"Don't tell anyone. Not even Alex or Tay. I'm not ready to really come out. But I feel like a girl trapped in a guy's body" Kellin said.

"OH! oh! oh my god! I'm sorry for misgendering you kellin" Mike said apologetically

"it's okay you didn't know"Kellin said.

"I mean you've always been kind of feminine. so it makes sense" Mike said smiling as he walked out of the room.

"Hey Vic how am I going to tell my mom." Kellin asked.

"No idea. Maybe tell Alex and Tay first" I said.

"Well, Alex has absolutely no fucking clue because he is an oblivious fuck. But like I told tay a long time ago about questioning my gender and she said let her know when I know. But how do I tell Alex?" Kellin asked.

"Do you want me to have them come over and we can talk about it?" I asked.

"Can you?" Kells asked

"sure. Hand me my phone." I said.

{KELLIN POINT OF VIEW}

I am nervously pacing Vic's room waiting for Alex and tay to get here. Vic keeps telling me to relax but I am so fucking scared. What if Alex hates me. He always says I am like a brother to him. He isn't gonna want a sister. Fuck my life. Why am I like this. Why the fuck am I like this.