You're A fishy fellow (phan AU)

Drunken Terror

*Carter's POV*

I jump, as I hear the door slam to my house. I take my old flimsy pillow and put it over my head, not wanting to hear what's about to happen. My father drinks. It terrifies me now because I know he can hurt me. He can also hurt my mother. I can't get involved because he threatened to kill my mother if I get involved. He beats her for whatever reason he can find. I want to help so much but I'm scared of my own father. I hate him so much.

I hear the sound of my mother being thrown onto our wooden floor. I feel the tears start to come down my face, knowing I can't help. I'm useless. I'm a wimp for being scared. I should help but I don't. I don't help in fear he'll kill her and me. My mother deserves the world and everything good. She doesn't deserve the pain she's going through.

"Loral what the fuck are you doing" I hear him yell and another big crash sound erupts. There's more and more yelling. The sound of a bottle being thrown echoes through the small house. I'm crying and I can't take it anymore. I don't want to hear this anymore.

I get up, grabbing my bag and I go to my window. I feel the cool breeze of the night come over me, as I step outside. I climb down the tree next to my window and start to run. I check my phone and it's 3:50.

"It's way too early to be doing this" I mutter to myself, as I start to slow down when I get into the park.

The park is where I normally go when this happens. It brings me a sense of calmness. There's this hidden spot I go to. It has a little pond with a dock sitting above it. There's these trees around it that have long, beautiful, and captivating vines that hang from it. The place is overall just extraordinary.

I sit on the dock and look at the moon reflecting off of the dark water. It's honestly such an intriguing sight, that makes you look at it. I wipe my tears off with my sleeve and eventually calm down my breathing. I jump as I hear footsteps come closer to me. I quickly get up and go behind the vines of the large tree. I can see through the vines and it's a girl from my school. Why the hell is she here at 4 in the morning?

I look at her face and see that she's actually not bad looking. I only ever see the back of her head though. She sits down at the dock and I reposition myself and he looks up quickly. I stop instantly not wanting her to know I'm here. She can't see me through the vines I don't think. The girl looks back at the water, and closes his eyes. I study her face and she looks so calm. Her skin is pale in contrast to his black clothes and her curly hair, lazily laying over her forehead. 

"She really is gorgeous" I think to myself. Her whole body looks so calm laying there. She seems to get the same sense of calmness here as I do. When she's at school she doesn't seem calm at all. She seems anxious all the time.

The brown haired girl stands up and looks at her phone. She starts to walk away. I move slightly, trying not to be loud. She looks over again and starts walking towards the tree. I make a run for it hoping I get away before she can see me. After running to where I know she can't see me I stop. I collect my breath and head back to the dock. By the time I'm back at the dock I realise I should be heading to school. I start walking out of the park and see the girl again. She's standing outside his car and I try not to make eye contact. I look up and smile at a random person and walk in hoping she didn't see me.

I go to my class and sit at the back as I normally do. This time I become more aware of the brown haired boy at the front of the class. He seems to not notice me as the class goes on. We take lots of notes and I look at my handwriting. It's horrible when I write fast. It's barely legible to be honest. I make a mental not to work on that.

I realise my nose is bleeding and I get a tissue out of my bag and I pretend to sneeze in it. I don't want anyone to ask about a bloody nose so I play it off as a sneeze. I doubt anyone would even question my bloody nose but it's good to take precautions. I don't talk to anyone at school. I try my hardest not to make contact with anyone. I am terrified I'll embarrass myself and do something stupid. I don't want people to hate me. I don't want people to know I exist.

I snap out of my thoughts when I hear the bell ring. I hurry up and grab my stuff and speed walk out of the classroom. I keep my head down as I walk through the hallways trying to be unnoticed. It's very hard for me to go unnoticed since I wear bright colours and I'm 6'2. I'm taller than most the people here so I can see over the people easily.

School ended and I start walking home down the path I normally take. As I'm walking I see this dog limping. I walk up to him cautiously, letting him sniff my hand so he knows I'm safe. I gently take his paw and see that there is a splinter in it. As I try to take out the splinter the dog tries to pull away but I calm him down by kissing his head and petting him. The splinter is pulled out quickly and thrown into the grass. The dog jumps on me and licks my face and I just smile and hug him.

Eventually the dog gets up and runs away, doing who knows what. I walk back home after stopping by the store getting my mother and I some snack foods. Since it's Tuesday we normally have a movie night because my dad isn't home and this is the only time we get to spend happily with each other. I walk inside and see my mother smiling happy at me.

"How have you been honey" my mother says sweetly, giving me a hug. I feel her wince when she does.

"Mom how bad is it?" I ask tentatively, looking to see her reaction. I see a tear roll down her face and she falls on me and starts crying saying how much she hates him. The thought of my dad breaking down this beautiful woman infuriates me.

"I'm sorry you have to live this way. I promise one day you and I will get out of this hell" she says holding me tighter.

"I know. It's okay" I whisper to her kissing her head softly.  I stand there and hug her for who knows how long.

"Hey I have some snack and movies let's go watch them and have a great time" I say happily smiling. She nods and we both go and watch so many movies. She eventually falls asleep and so do I. This is the first time in a while I've fallen asleep with a smile on my face. I wish I could just get rid of the drunken terror that is my father.