Chasing Pavements

Chapter 3

|song for this chapter| this is a song that I'm really obssessed with right now. (I'm not sure if I'll choose a song for each chapter)

>Video on the side<

Dear Maria Count Me In - All Time Low

sorry for the typos... Enjoy!!!

I took a deep breath before I knocked on Josh's door, but there was no answer. I turned the doorknob and the door was surprisingly open. I walked around a little bit but there was no sign of him. I was about to sit down on the sofa when I heard the sound of Josh's laugh. I walked down the hall till I reached his bedroom door. He's probably watching a movie or something, I'll just go in and join him he'll be so happy to see me. I slowly opened the door.

"Babe!? I'm home from America! -Oh my god!" I sure as hell didn't expect to see this. But why wasn't I surprised, I mean it has happened before, I've walked in on Josh cheating on me before, but he promised it wouldn't happen again. He promised... "I can't believe you!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. "You promised" my voice cracked, but I wasn't crying.

"Baby I'm sorry, please don't go. I love you, you know that" he gasped my arm to keep me from walking. I turned and looked him dead in the eyes.

"How could you do this to me? I thought you loved me" I turned again rubbing my hands over my face. "I'm such an idiot!"

"No you're not an idiot baby I love, I do. But as long as you're not ready- I have needs I'm sorry. Please don't leave" he pulled me into a hug.

"I won't. I'll never leave you" I said hugging him back. I let go of him when I remembered. "But she sure as hell is!" I speed-walked back into the bedroom.

"I'm sorry Mandy. Please don't hur-" I smacked her across the face before she could finish her sentence. I pushed her against the wall, my hand around her neck.

"last time you said that this would never happen again, you obviously lied" I pushed her back into the wall "look at me when I'm talking to you!" she let out a whimper and looked me in the eyes "I really, really don't like liars, but I'll give you one last chance. So I'll let you walk out of this apartment in just a second, but if I ever see your hideous face again, I beat you up." I let go of her and she fell to the ground trying to catch her breath. "Now fuck off!" I yelled. She quickly got up and ran out.

"You're so sexy when you're mad" Josh smirked at me when I turned to face him.

"Thanks..." I replied. "by the way I got the band a job at the pub" I felt so proud that I finally got us a place to play.

"Nah I don't really feel like it" he said laid down on the sofa.

"It's not really a choice for you to make whether or not you want to!" I raised my voice.

"Fine! There's no need to be a bitch about it" he mumbled the last part, loud enough for me to hear, but I chose to ignore it. "but I'll only participate if you come here" he reached out for me sitting me on top of him with one of my legs on each side of him. I leaned down placing my lips on his, I slightly parted my mouth and his tongue slipped through. My mouth left his as I left small kisses down his jaw till I reached his neck where I started nipping his skin. A throaty moan left his slightly parted lips. My mouth found its way back to his in a heated kiss. His hands slowly found its way under my shirt and unclasped my bra.

"No... please not right now" I said into the kiss.

"c'mon it's just sex" the way he said it shocked me, he knew it wasn't 'just sex' to me, I might me a uncaring bitch but I actually do care about my virginity. I know a seventeen year old virgin how lame is that, I might not be the stereotype girl but I do want my first time to be special.