LISA POV
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Why did I cry in front of him? In fact why did I cry in the first place? He kissed me and I kissed back. Then he said it was a mistake. I should have agreed. But I couldn't. Did I like luke? Is that why I care so much. He said it was a mistake. I can't like a person who doesn't like me back. I thought I was over him. I thought It was a two day crush. Had I not gotten rid of those feelings? Or did .. Did I get feelings for luke that are stronger and have nothin to do with the way he looks. He was sweet when he wanted to be. Like the day he carried my luggage. He was handsome, charming. He was really hot. He had a sparkle in his blue eyes and the weirdest part.. I felt safe with him. Did I like luke in a way that was different then other girls? Girls would drool over him but they didn't know him. They didn't know his sweet side. I did. I liked luke. That's why I cried myself to death when he said the kiss was a mistake. I liked luke and I needed to get over those feelings because he didn't like me back.
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I woke up and my mouth felt very dry. I looked around and noticed I was in the guest room.
Kissing
crying
Luke
.. All of it came back to me. Ughh I was gonna have to face him.
I got up and unlocked the door. The smell of food hit my nose. I walked in the kitchen to find luke sitting there eating pancakes.
I walk in and grab a plate putting pancakes on it. I sit across from look and start eating in silence.
" good morning" I look up and see him smiling at me. Really? Was he just gonna forgot that he made me cry the whole night? Okay then I guess I would to.
" morning .. We have to leave like now." I say and watch his reaction. Nothing. He just nods and gets up.
" okay finish eating. When your done come tell me and we will leave" with that he walks out and leaves me alone. Only to find tears slipping out of my eyes. Really? I was gonna cry again? Fuck me.
Well that made me lose my apatite. I get up and put the dish in the sink. Wiping away my tears I go to his room and knock once before walking towards the front door to his car.
We were riding in his car in silence. I couldent stand it. I leaned my head against the window and closed my eyes.
" I'm sorry Lisa. Please let me explain."
I nod and keep my eyes closed.
" Lisa I ... The kiss was a mistake. Okay? It just was. I didn't mean for it to happen. I don't get why you cried. Please tell me so I can understand. I don't want us to not talk to each other. I want you as a friend."
So he didn't like me. He still thought it was a mistake.
" DAMN YOU LUKE WHY DID I CRY? You think a pink kangaroo came and stabbed me! NOO! ISNT IT OBVIOUS! I cried because ... I ... I like you luke. I didn't think the kiss was a mistake. But you did. So I say we forgot the kiss ever happend. This conversation didn't happen. Forgot about the whole fuckin day we spent down here for all I care. Just drop it and forgot it. It didn't mean anything to you and eventually it won't mean anything to me. I hope. " I was amazed at all i said. I noticed I was crying. I looked to see luke very silent and shocked. He didn't say anything for the rest of the way back and neither did I.
I got off and went to the house. I found my dad sitting at the table drinking coffee.
" honey how did it go? Were your crying why are your eyes red?"
