11:30pm
i like you kim yugyeom. those words keep on running on my mind, until our teacher called me for staring at my desk in awhile, the class laughs and i felt embarrassed but i don't care. but wait, maybe i feel the same. the way i care for him, the way i was worried about him last night, the way i admire him. maybe i feel the same way. i like him too. i like you too, kunpimook bhuwakul.
class has ended. me and jackson fech bambam at my house first before we go to the cafe. as i enter, i saw bambam watching late night dramas. is he waiting for me? and then bambam looked at our direction and come closer and he gave us a warm hug.
"hi yugyeom"
"hey uhm excuse me, im here too!"
"hehe, sorry hyung"
we laughed at the situation and we told bambam that he should come with us to the cafe. not even thinking about it, he nodded. i let him borrow my clothes again because we forgot to go shopping yesterday. damn, he wore my ripped jeans and my ripped white shirt and a pair of sneakers. i felt my cheeks are burning and i didn't notice, bambam hugged me. i don't know why but i hugged him back.
"stop ew oh gahd im here aLIENS!"
"sorry hyuuuunngg~ you'll get mark hyung soon"
jackson's cheeks became pink and bambam giggles on my stomach. i felt butterflies on my stomach. i really do like him. jackson drove the car and we got in to the cafe, with mark. we laughed and talk more, as usual. then bambam sat on my lap. i felt my boner just stood up. oh god-
"little yugyeom, chill"
he felt that? oh my gahd that is so embarrassing. and bambam smirked at me. i saw mark and jackson are cuddling.
"wait jackson?"
"wat?"
"are you official?"
"yes yugyeom"
"goodluck with him mark"
"i will"
they look so adorable. then bambam moved his hips, making my boner a little bit angry. i felt a kiss on my cheek and it felt warm and soft.
"b-bam"
"shh they might here you"
he kissed my lips passionately, i kissed him back. until then i kissed his neck, making sweet yet pleasure marks. i hear his sweet moans, it's like a music into my ears. he stopped me.
"too early daddy we're too young"
"but you started it-"
"hmm so daddy is horny"
"n-no?!?"
and bambam kissed my lips and he whispered that we should go home. jackson and mark agreed and jackson brought mark with us. we got home and we planned to watch some movies and jackson chose a horror movie where i hate horror movies. fuck. bambam was glancing at me and gave me hug.
"don't worry, bammie is here"
"thank you"
12:30am
i leaned on bambam's shoulder and i hold his warm hands. he squeezed it, a sign that i should be watching the movie. instead, i stared at bambam. too many questions came into my mind again. do i deserve you? do you deserve me? do i look nice into your eyes? i didn't realize that i whispered those thoughts and he heard that.
yes yugyeom, i deserve you, you deserve me, you're beautiful to me.
i felt my cheeks are burning and i saw at the corner at my eye, bambam was smiling and i smiled back. suddenly i saw the jump scare in the movie, i jumped into the couch and hide under the table. bambam was laughing at me.
"aw yugyeom how adorable"
"s-stop laughing at m-me it's not f-funny!"
i felt a tear falling on my cheek and bambam comes closer and gave me a hug and whispers sorry. i didn't realize that i fell asleep on his shoulder and i felt that he carries me into the bedroom.
1:30am
i woke up. and i didn't saw bambam, wondering where he went. i checked the living room, i only saw jackson and mark snoring quietly. i went to the bathroom, nothing. i searched the whole house, nothing. i remembered the time that he also left at this time, he might be at the park. i drove jackson's car as fast as i could. i finally arrived at the park, seein bambam staring at the stars above. i can feel the cold wind on my skin, i sat beside bambam.
"b-bam"
"i knew it, i knew that you'll find me here baby"
"but why do you always leave at this time?"
"wanna know a secret?"
"y-yes"
he didn't hesitate and kissed me. i kissed him back. i still wonder what's he's secret. i broke the kiss and he hugged me tight.
"3:00am kim yugyeom"
"what do you mean?"
"you trust me right? i love you okay?"
"yes, i do, i love you too, but please, you made my life a colorful one, you're the sunshine in my life, you're beautiful like those stars that you were staring at, please don't leave me"
sorry, sorry yugyeom i can't but don't worry, i'll be always by your side; you'll always feel me.
"trust me okay?"
