1:30am
alone. all alone at my house. it's 1:00am, classes are done. jackson didn't walked with me because he's with mark, i'm okay with it. bambam and i are dating now, and i knew him, he will always go the park to look up at the sky. i stood up on my bed and changed my dirty clothes as fast as possible. when i'm satisfied with my style, i opened the car and drove to the car.
the moon and the stars were sparkling so bright tonight. i parked the car by the tree. i got out of the car, i already saw bambam looking up in the sky, holding his phone, capturing the stars above. i went to his spot and he started capturing me. i hate it when someone captures me without even saying a word, but bambam doesn't make me irritate at his action. he always makes me feel his love for me.
"you came"
"of course"
"please always visit the park okay?"
"bambam, stop scaring me"
"i'm not scaring you"
"are you gonna leave me?"
"i wont"
"i trust you kunpimook"
"me too kim"
the silence came in. bambam broke the silence and kissed me, i kissed him back. i can feel his cheeks are wet; i broke the kiss and i saw him crying. why?
"why are you crying?"
"i wish you'll be happy always, promise me that yugyeom"
"i don't understand, but yes, for you baby"
he hugged me and he sobs at my shoulder. i really need to find out why is he acting like this. i'm already starting to worry that he might leave me without leaving a word, or he might leave me, broke me into pieces. and he broke the hug and we stayed here for a long time.
time is gold, they say
but with you, every moment is important, everything is perfect with you.
2:00am
it's already 2:00am. i saw bambam was not yet even falling asleep. i only stared at his beautiful face. his face was a little bit of white-ish, gray-ish. does he do makeup? and everytime he holds me, it was just like water, you can't feel it but you can feel the way it does. i asked bambam if we can go home now, he nods and i drove home. i parked the car and i opened the door and bambam blocks my way.
"i should go first"
"but-"
he's already lying on my bed. he looks cute everytime he sleeps. i wish we alway stay like this. we spend our time at the park, midnights. we took a lot of pictures to keep some. we talk and we laugh, hearing his laugh is a beautiful music to my ears. until when i got into my bedroom, bambam is fast asleep.
i love you so much kunpimook bhuwakul, please stay.
