Bts imagines

Kim Taehyung~ last kiss pt.1

Recommended song of the day: 'Everlong' by Foo fighters
Your pov
I groan as I find myself still awake at 2 am. Why? Because my boyfriend still hasn't come home yet and I can't sleep when he's not here.
I sigh and get up, looking down at the mess I made of the bed sheets.

Mumbling some incoherent words about how this is all Taehyung's fault, I make my way downstairs to make myself a cup of tea. I take out the packs from the cupboards and poor some water in the kettle. I sit on the chairs by the kitchen island, waiting for the water to boil.

Just as it started to boil, I hear the front door unlocking and Taehyung dropping his bag on the floor, apparently making more noises than he enticipated because I heard him curse.

I shake my head, pooring the boiling hot water in my cup, then adding some sugar to it. (With kookies and a bit of jams)

"why are you still awake?" I hear Tae ask as he walks into the kitchen. He wraps his arms around my waist and pecks my cheek, then my shoulder, before resting his head on it.

"I can't sleep" i mumble and he sighs
"Are you okay?" He asks
"Fine."
"You don't seem okay." He persists and I groan
"I can't sleep when you're not here. And you're never here. Add two and two and BAM, here I am, at 2 am, making myself a cup of tea." I scoff, wriggling myself out of his grasp.

"Y/N..." he starts
"No, Tae, honestly it's fine. I know it's your job. It just feels like nowadays we're just friends. Not a couple that's been together for 8 years, just friends." I sigh, my eyes starting to water slightly as I sit back down and look at my cup of tea

"I know baby... I'm so sorry, we've just been so busy with the comeback and we've got so many photoshoots-"

"I know, gosh, I shouldn't have brought it up" i sigh
"Let me finish" he scolds.
I nod and signal him to continue.
"I miss you, Y/N, I really do. I miss holding you until you fall asleep everynight. I miss waking up to your face, and I miss our little spontaneous dates because I had the time. I miss you, us, but there's nothing else I can do but to come back home everynight- day, whatever, and showing you how much I love you. Let me show you, please" he pleads and I shake my head.

"I can't do this anymore, Tae."
"Do what?" He asks, reaching for my hand but I retract it immediately
"I can't wait for you to come home at 2-3 even 4 am every night. I can't miss you for months on end because you're on tour. Trust me, I'm proud of you and I'm so happy for you but I have to think for myself, my own happiness. We can't be together anymore Taehyung." I sob, rushing back up to our room.

I start to wonder "what the hell did I just do? He's the love of my life" but at the same time, I need to think about myself aswell, I should also be happy in this relationship.

I take my suitcase and start packing a small amount of stuff for a few nights, I'll get the rest later. As I turn around to go get my toothbrush from the bathroom, I see Taehyung leaning against the bedroom door, bloodshot eyes and puffy cheeks.

"So you're just gonna go like that?" He whimpers and I nod
"I can't do this anymore" I reply, getting my charger and laptop from our desk, now his.
"I've never even known that you felt that way, you never talked to me about this, so you're kind of taking me by surprise saying these things while leaving me" he lightly chuckles, whiping a tear tolling down his cheeks

"I know, I'm sorry, it's just too much for me to handle right now. But know that I love you with all my heart Tae" I walk to him and press my lips to his for one last kiss, my quiet sobs suddenly becoming louder than ever.

"You can't love me as much as you claim if you're leaving me. Go then. Go. Leave me, us, after so many years of fighting for this. i'm sorry I can't give you what you want, but I gave you everything you needed. If you're too selfish as to just leave something great just because you can't see me everyday, then go. If you think you can find someone that can love you, make you smile, and make you cry of happiness for no apparent reason, just like me, just go. But just so you know, nobody will ever make you feel like I did. I gave you everything, and don't come back if someone doesn't give you that. Because if you go, you go taking all of those things I ever dared to trust in your hands. So go, and don't come back" He manages to get out through sobs before running downstairs as I stare at the empty spot where he once was, my eyes widened and tears threatening to spill out.

I know why I'm doing this, and I know what it'll cost me. I'll miss Taehyung so much, but I can't do this anymore, as selfish as it sounds.

I take my suitcase and make my way downstairs, finding Tae on the couch, elbows on his knees and face in his hands. full on sobbing. He's violently shaking and it breaks my heart to know that I'm the reason for this. I shake my head and head to the front door, my suitcase rolling loudly on the floor, getting his attention.

He watches as I put my shoes and jacket on.

I open the door and look at him in the eye one last time.

"I love you, Kim Taehyung" I say and close the door behind me, but not before hearing one last sob from him, only tearing me apart even more.

Goodbye, my love, I'll miss you.