Dear Diary

To new beginnings...

Dear Diary,

    Where to begin...hmm.

    If you would have asked me eight months ago how I thought my sophomore year of high school would go, you would have gotten a pretty generic answer.  I would of said something like it would be "okay", or that it would not be very eventful. That it would be like every other year.  But secretly I would be wishing that I was brave enough to talk to "Sidney" in biology or "Jake" in World History.  How I wished that I would find at least one friend that I could talk to, or how much I hoped this would be the year that Marie and I became friends and sisters again. 

       I can tell you with certainty that you wouldn't have heard me say ; that I Sang Sorenson would get her first kiss ( and several more 😘), or that I would become part of a group of friends that were so amazing and that they would become my family.  You also wouldn't have heard me say that I would be happy, and that I would end up living with a guy....that wasn't my father.

     I haven't written for a few days because life got a little crazy.  Things with my mom took a turn for the worse and Mr. Blackbourne decided it was time to get me out of the house.  The night after I stayed with Nathan I was working at the diner and Luke walked me home after my shift   He gave me a friendly hug goodbye and left.  Well my mother who decided that night was the night to become a parent, was standing in my room and watched the whole thing.  She went postal, and of course my wonderful father wasn't anywhere to be found.

       I have thanked God everyday for the fact that North is a worry wort and that he turned the camera in my room on to make sure that I got in ok.  Kota was the first to reach me, and I truly believe that he saved my life.  I won't go into details because I don't want to think about it anymore and I hope to someday forget it.

      Long story shortened that is how I became roommates with North Taylor.  Tonight is my first night here, since I was in the hospital for the last three days.  Sean is insisting on staying the night to take care of me  because " He is a Dr. You know". Haha and North has been grumpy ever since Sean got here. 

        All the guys have come by to see me and tell me goodnight.  Mr. Blackbourne wouldn't let them all stay here like they wanted, so Kota suggested that the rest of them have a slumber party at Uncle and Luke's.  "Just incase I need them".

      I really think I am going to like living here.  It is definitely going to be different than what I am used to.  North gave me his room and said he would sleep on the couch, like I will let that happen.  He has a king sized bed with plenty of room, and besides that I come to the conclusion I hate sleeping alone.  Since I met the guys and they started staying the night with me, I can't sleep without one of them with me.

      I guess I should call it a night.  I know that I have a long road ahead of me and things aren't going to be easy, but for the first time in my life I am excited to go to bed so I can wake up and see what tomorrow brings.  Everything is far from perfect, but I know with this amazing group of guys that have somehow become my whole entire world things are going to be ok.

                   goodnight...

💙Me!!!

PS....Nathan kissed me....😍....