A Match Into Water (Neeroy Fanfiction)

Chapter 21

Niall's POV

I woke up. I trudged downstairs to get some breakfast. I called Liam. I answered the "Are you okay?" question asked by my Mum and then Greg. But the whole time, all I wished was that Leeroy was here with me, holding me whilst I played guitar, teasing me about something like he usually does.

I recalled back when we first met and he asked me out. I was instantly falling for him, although we didn't even know each other. It occurred to me that we still had a couple of secrets we never got to share. But I had to get used to this routine now, it's not like he'll be saving me anymore.

We hadn't even been dating for long. Maybe a month or two, but I fell hard. I still fall in love with him everyday, but now what's it for? It's for fuck all, because he's going to be taken away from me forever.

I quickly decided I was too depressed to even think abut attending school, so I heaved myself up from the sofa and tried to escape out of the room but my Mum wasn't having it. She stopped me with a quick ah, ah, ah and gestured for me to sit back down. I tried to object, but the expression on her face told me that she wasn't letting me get out if this one.

"I understand you're upset, Niall," she whispered softly. "But when was the last time you saw your friends? They want you back, honey, we all do. Go to school."

I glowered at her and snorted without humour. "Upset? You think I'm upset? No, Mum, I'm more than that. I want to go with him. Desperately. I don't want him to leave me."

"Oh, Niall, don't be ridiculous," Maura exclaimed, her expression changing from soft to almost terrified. "What do you mean, you want to go with him? To heaven?"

Of course I did. I wanted to be with him forever. In the short time I have known him, I have literally loved life more than I ever had before. He makes me whole. I always used to feel like a bit of an outsider since I never had a boyfriend or even girlfriend before. All my friends and classmates were there with their dates, all lovey whilst I had to stomach it all, jealous and heartbroken.

I remember when I was a kid, I asked my mum to be my girlfriend because I'd seen Zayn and this girl kissing. Bear in mind we were ten, but they weren't all romantic, it was more puppy love than anything but I still felt left out.

And then Leeroy turned up. He'd turned my world upside down, and he thought I was perfect. That's why I love him, he looked past the depressing times and flaws and he loved me. He respected me and fought for me although there was all these problems happening trying to split us up, he made sure I was happy.

He made me his by taking my virginity and giving me all this pleasure I had never experienced before. He was the one to give me this and I was the one to receive it and he was just...

Well, he was just perfect.

"I want to die with him," I whispered. "I want to stay with him forever. I know you're going to talk me out of it but I've made my decision. He dies, I die. Always."

She burst out crying. Guilt overwashed me, but I was being serious. I'd had time to think this through, and living without him is not an option. This is what is going to happen.

"And how do you expect to do that?" Greg's voice came out of nowhere; he was stood at the door with his fists clenched. He had heard everything.

I glanced at him with no expression.

"Overdose on pills? Cut artery? I don't know. There are so many ways to die, but I'm debating jumping in front of a bus for someone so we can both die heroes."

Greg furrowed his eyebrows as he ran his fingers through his messy hair. He wasn't wearing a shirt, so I figured he came down to ask Mum if shed done any laundry or something. His jeans were jeans I had bought him for his last birthday. They were too big for him but he still wore them, coming up with the excuse "'cause my baby bro bought them for me.' My heart almost sank, I'd miss him.

"You're just being stupid," he muttered, in denial. "Think of Liam! You think he can lose his brother and now his best friend? Have some empathy for others. What about me, Mum? Your other mates? Ni, we can't lose you."

Greg immediately started sobbing, something I hadn't seen before since he was about ten. I didn't cry though; I cried enough that most things didn't effect me anymore.

"It's my choice," I told them both. "I can't live without him."

"We can't live without you," Maura interjected, her eyes bright red with tears.

I brushed her hand and half-smiled. "You will get through this. Just like you got through Dad leaving and Greg leaving with his wife. You're stronger than I am, Mum."

Greg sniffed. "What about me? I ain't strong."

I whirled my body around to stare at his puffy face. He looked so young, though he was quite a bit older than me. I never thought I'd be the one comforting him since he's usually the guy who stops me from crying like he had done for the past few weeks. He was such an inspiration.

"You're tougher than you give yourself credit for. Remember when you got all freaked out when you were getting married? You sorted yourself out and did the God damn thing. None of us expected you would move out since you are some lazy ass gamer but you got off your sad ass and did it. I think you can handle me going."

Greg shook his head. "But I've never dealt with my brother dying."

"You will," I reassured him. "You'll deal with it like a real man like you deal with all the shit that comes your way. You've been through a lot or crap, Greg, but you're strong."

Maura shook her head in disbelief. "So my son is going to die."

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I haven't updated in AGES and I apologise guys, but I've been busy with my Niam fanfic too. If you like a bitta Niam, you should take a look! Thank you so much!

Aw, so Niall wants to die with Leeroy:( How do you guys feel about that? Answer in the comments below!

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-ChloweTomlinson<3