Day Dreamer (Aston Irwin) BOOK1

Suicidal (trigger warning)

Lights flash blue read white blue red white and all you see is a bunch of medical dispatchers and police officers filing your house they are all asking you question and you don't hear them you just look at you almost dead mother as her limp body is scooped up off the ground on to a stretcher. 

Police officer: Ma'm are you okay 

Me: umm what were you saying 

Police officer: do you know anyone who might have wanted your mother dead 

Me: no not at all I don't know why anyone would ever do thi( BREAKS DOWN AND FALLS TO THE FLOOR BAWLING*)

Police Officer: it is gonna be okay we are gonna find out who did this and when we do they are gonna be locked up for life.

Me (through the tears and heavy breathing) Thank you sir I cant believe it someone needs to pay

Police Officer: and they will well I'm gonna go back to my office and work on figuring out who did this to you mom are you gonna be okay alone.

Me: yes sir i'm gonna drive up to the hospital and see her once you leave.

Police Officer: take it easy now you hear 

Me: yes sir goodbye 

I run up to my room once the police officer left I started packing my night bag and throwing my shoes on when i nocked over my dark purple box I left upon my night stand the night before I started school

it fell to the floor and all it's dark secrets fell out i just stared at the mess for a moment until i started to feel a tear run down my face again then I broke down into pieces i took one of the blades and i help it to my delicate skin oh how it burned when my skin met the cold metallic touch of its cut i kept on crying and bleeding and before i knew it i fell out in to a nice cold trance

Next thing i know is i'm hooked up to a machine and i don't know where i'm at i look around and then i feel these soft and securing arms wrap around me so strong that I cant get up i turn around and see him my HAZEL eyed cutie WAIT he is not mine and why is he here i managed to get one of my arms out of his grip and smack him across the head 

A: what was that for 

Me: where am I, why are you here, and why the fuck are you arms around me???

A: The hospital, I found you unconscious in your own blood at your house, and I counted your cuts 22 you cut your self 22 time that's 22 cuts I could have prevented if I was there for you.

Me: but you weren't you weren't there i needed you and you weren't there you promised to always be there and you weren't you Broke me. And its my fault

A: I'm sorry princess i wanted to be there for you its not your fault you didn't do anything  i will be there for you from now on it is just me and you were doing so fine one day and then the next you were breaking up with me with out explanation and it threw me off into one of my depressed modes and i ended up in the mental hospital for a week fixing everything but i was never truly fixed. Why did you push me away

Me: your friends told me your dirty little secret and I was pissed because they were planning to use it against me if we do this again with no influencers you have to promise me we will both try harder and i'm not just gonna forgive and forget because this really hurts but i'm hurting more on the inside and i need you here with me.

A: whats secret and what's  wrong why are you hurting on the inside.

Me: nvm and my mom she she is de *curls up and lay on hazel eyes and breaks down 

A: princess it is okay it will all be okay I'm here I got you now I'm sorry I wasn't there I'm so sorry

Me: i don't have anyone i don't have a home and i cant go to school everything is just over for me.

A: you have me you will always have me baby girl, You do have a home because I'm your home ill always be your home, and as far as school why can't you come back???

Me: *calms down and answer there are these kids that bully me 

A: who are they ill FUCKING kill them 

Me: Their your friends 

A: oh ill deal with them and next time you see them they will be changed people I swear to it