I'm halucinaitng…I'm a dead man, the world doesn't need me anyway. Even the person I love abbandoned me, she abandoned me twice.
"Where… are you now…heh…? Where are you know when I really need someone? I guess you never asked for me anyway, why would you be here…you don't have to…If I tried doesn't mean you should too…If I love you doesn't mean you should too. Fuck you!"
I close my eyes.
"You still love me…"
I ignore her.
"You need me…"
"YOU ARE NOT FUCKING REAL!!!"
"There you go, let that anger come out!"
"FUCK YOU!!!"
"That's it…"
"You're just playing with me…you're just one of my demons trying to rip me appart."
"No, I'm the woman you love."
I don't say anything. It's true.
"Why don't you just let me go…"
"You said it yourself, I love you."
"Love should be beautiful…"
"I always thought love should be hard to get to…that you have to struggle and choke in blood to find it. When you left…I thougt it's a test for me to see how strong my love is…and I tried and I cried every day and I really thought you'll come back to me and my pain was worth it. But at the same time I was really afraid you'll never come back that, you'll find love in someone else's arms. I was watching how happy you were without me. I had nothing special to make you come back…seeing you laugh made me angry…I was drowning my eyes in tears and it seemed you don' care…and I was praying to God to show me the way to yout heart. But then you left forever…with my heart ripped in half and my soul lit on fire, a black and evil fire."
Silence sets, she doesn't say anything, but I can see she wants to.
"This is the only thing I don't like about you. You never say anything…never.
My heart jumps as I see her mouth opening.
"You have to get out of here, sweetheart, they are coming for you…"
Of course…like nothing happened.
"What do you care?"
"I do…"
"Bad for you, I don't!"
"I love you…"
"NO YOU FUCKING DON'T!!!"
I furiously throw the radio at her, my back snaps.
"ARGH!!!"
The radio bounced and landed outside.
"You will need that…"
I stop talking to her. I close my eyes and whisper.
"Go away…just go away…"
"We both know you can't push me away…"
"STOP PLAYING WITH MY HEAD!" I shout
"You really have to go now…"
"Why…?"
"Because they're coming…"
"No…why are you here?"
"I'm just in your head, Alex…you wanted me to be here and here I am."
"I'm mad…"
"You're mad in love."
