life of a teenager

agh

Hiii I'm back so first my second eldest sister is going to move back in after only being out for not even a month. I hate her all I can remember about her is when she called me fat ugly and any other mean name she could think of. Not only that I have a ton of homework for not being able to walk for a few days I am out of track in till I can comfortably walk on it lucky me... Well my second eldest sister is moving back in and is not changed a bit she is still the mean b**** I hate and will never love her. She always hated me she would always call me fat ugly and retarded and I'm not my mom said if I know in not then get over it. I was always a troubled child and I got better but then I started being good after my mom would take out to the car and spank me I grew up used to that. One time I could literally not sit down for a day or two. I always hated my life and never wanted to be here I always thought everything was my fault and I still do I always get told that oh get over it, your putting the pain on yourself, only you can control that. My whole life my mom would say that every time I got upset so I did the same thing everyone else would do in my family I went quite anxious quit talking to her. I also was up all night with me having a big test today and I tell my mom says oh I reacted them and they got quieter but they didn't stop. And I got yelled at for texting my mom that late at night it's like are you serious I wasn't the ones keeping people up all the time with arguing before she moved out. I swear if I have to listen to her arguing again I will move out and that means no phone no updates anywhere no contact with people I would be completely on my own. I'll have to get a job rent a place or move in with a friend and offer to pay part of the rent or something and it will be all because she let my second eldest sister move back on with her boyfriend that no one trust and her bratty kid that doesn't know how to talk yet he is almost two years old too. I am done with her whole family. I swear I was adopted in am nothing like my family and I don't look anything like my family sometimes I wish I were not born and then I realized I have no one who cares in my family but I do have four people who Care about me in school. But that's the only place people care about me and there aren't many people who care for me at school either. A lot of people hate me I am disliked and shown it all the time we'll that's enough for today see ya later.