A Thousand Years | Mesut Ozil (Sequel to Written In The Stars) [completed]

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Vanessa was sitting at her couch, watching something on TV but not paying the slightest of attention at it. Her thoughts were traveling to Sam. Of course, he had been mad at her, the night before, because he clearly realized that Vanessa was lying to him. And she was indeed lying to him. And he knew it. He knew that Vanessa was lying all along. He was so disappointed and the night had ended with them fighting and Sam leaving. Apparently Mesut kept his promise when saying that he would make them break up. Because Vanessa and Sam were fighting really bad the last few days, and Sam was suspecting that Vanessa was cheating on him.
The whole day had really been a mess, since today was the day that Vanessa and her team were supposed to decide about the cast. And although, Louisa had insisted that she didn't want Tanya, since she thought that there was a better option, Vanessa didn't even want to talk about it.
- We don't mix career and personal life, here Lou.
She had said.
Louisa had rolled her eyes, clearly annoyed.
- Of course we do. Especially, when we have options.
She had answered.
Vanessa had completely ignored her and it was obvious that since Vanessa wanted it, Tanya was going to be the new protagonist of the movie.
So, Louisa had stopped trying to change her mind and let things be the way they were.
The filming of the scenes was about to start soon and Vanessa didn't really want to lose anymore time.
At least, with a hectic routine, she was going to think less of Mesut. And the problems, he caused her.
She was really lost in her thoughts, when the doorbell rang. Vanessa wished it was Sam, although she knew that there was no chance of it. She opened the door, only to see a smiling Mesut, handing flowers in his hands.
She remained expressionless for a moment and then raised her eyebrows.
- You caused me enough trouble with your stupid flowers.
She commented.
- As if you don't like them.
- Mesut, this is stupid and it's ridiculous. We're not together and you're not allowed, neither to bring me flowers nor to come at my house that late.
Mesut chuckled.
- I told you yesterday that I would come. Did you forget it ?
Vanessa rolled her eyes.
- I thought you weren't serious. And now.........., leave.
Vanessa made an attempt to close the door but Mesut managed to step inside.
He looked all over her place, as if coming there for the first time.
- I remember the first time, I came here. It has been a lot of time.
Vanessa chuckled.
- I don't like the idea of you being here. You have no right to be here. What if Sam appears from nowhere ?
Mesut chuckled.
- It's easy. You'll kick him out.
Vanessa smirked.
- It's you that I'm going to kick out. Leave. Now.
Mesut smiled.
- And what if I don't want to leave ?
- You don't really have a choice.
- No, Vanessa. I came for us to talk and we'll talk.
- For the hundredth time, we two, have nothing to say.
- You may have nothing to say, but I do, and you're going to listen to me.
Vanessa chuckled.
- Leave me alone. I already have my own problems and believe me, I don't need yours as well.
Vanessa was serious when saying it, but Mesut, didn't seem eager to understand that. He put the flowers he was carrying aside and made himself comfortable to her couch.
- I won't leave, till you understand that what happened that day and what you had seen that day was just a misunderstood.
Vanessa smirked.
- I don't believe your lies anymore Mesut. I have clearly seen you two kissing and I know that you'll accuse her of kissing you, although you clearly wanted to kiss her as well.
Mesut chuckled.
- I never wanted to kiss her. It was a mistake, letting her come with me after practice, but if I knew what she was about to do, I would have never let her. And you know why Vanessa ? Cause I loved you and I still do, and I waited for you, all this time. I would wait for you a thousand years, if necessary. Cause I love you. The kiss didn't mean nothing to me. Cause I love you. And I don't know what else I have to do, to make you realize that. I make a complete fool of myself, begging you to come back to me, only to know that you'll reject me, again and again and again.
Vanessa was still expressionless.
- Don't beg me anymore then. It's over between us. I don't love you anymore. Maybe I never did.
Mesut looked at her surprised.
- You don't mean that. I know that you're lying. It's obvious by the way you kiss me.
- Don't worry, it won't happen again. I don't want it to happen again.
- Why are you like that now ? You agreed to talk with me yesterday.
- I did it, only to get rid of you! Because of you, I fight with Sam all the time! He thinks, I'm cheating on him.
Mesut smirked.
- He's still thinking that you're cheating on him ? He's so clever.
- Stop it Mesut. This isn't funny at all.
Mesut stood up from her couch and approached her, looking straight into her eyes.
- Do you think, I don't know it ? Do you think, I don't know that this isn't funny ? Do you think that it doesn't hurt me, seeing you kiss him ? Do you think, that I'm okay with the fact that the only girl, I've ever loved, sleeps with someone else ? Do you think I enjoy it Vanessa ?
Vanessa stared at him blankly.
- Everything's your fault. You were the first one to cheat on me. Now, you're just............
Mesut punched the wall beside them. He was now furious. How dare she, saying all these stuff ?
- You make me so mad, Vanessa. And do you know, what I could do to you right now ? Do you have any idea ?
He leaned closer to her. Their bodies touching and Vanessa breathing heavily.
Mesut touched her cheek with his fingers and then her lips.
- Of course you know, what could I do to you. Every time you have sex with him, you think of me. Is that right, baby ?
She didn't speak. She couldn't say much. Mesut's hand was touching her thigh and she was breathing heavily. Only his touch and Vanessa could forget anything.
- Why don't you say something, Vanessa ? Why are you so silent ? Did you remember how does it feel for me to be here ?
He moved his hand to her thigh and Vanessa had to fight the urge of groaning.
He smiled proudly at her reaction and he bit her bottom lip, making her moan.
He started leaving open mouthed kisses all the way down her chin and Vanessa was doing nothing to stop him.
- And how does that feel ?
Mesut asked her between kisses.
Vanessa tried to push him away but her hands on him, just made him smirk.
- Stop it, please.
She cried.
- Why ? Do you feel guilty about cheating on your boyfriend ?
Vanessa's jaw dropped open.
Mesut understood that he had pushed her too far. He could now see clearly, tears in her eyes.
- I'm sorry Vanessa.
She didn't speak again. She really felt guilty about cheating on Sam. But having Mesut here, so close and not having the right to touch him, was definitely not the easiest thing, she had been through.
- Why do you always have to behave like a jerk ?
Her eyes were wet.
- I'm sorry, baby. I didn't want to make you feel that bad.
His fingers wiped her tears away but Vanessa, pushed him away.
- Leave. You're an idiot. I can't believe I'm still in love with you. I can't believe that I thought you.........
- I'm really sorry Vanessa. I didn't mean to say that. Or actually make it sound so bad. Of course I'm an idiot. And I deserve it, that you don't believe me and that you don't forgive me. But I love you, remember that. I would do anything for you. You're the person that matters to me the most.
Tears were running down her face.
- We should forget each other. We're having different lives now. And just to inform you, I'll be working with Tanya from now on and I don't want anymore drama. So stop, visiting me in the middle of the night.
- I told you not to choose Tanya.
- I don't care what you say.
- Yeah, I've noticed that.
His expression was now cold and distant. Vanessa felt terrible.
She was silently praying to forget these last few moments and Mesut to start kissing her again. And then make love to her. Cause she had missed him. She had missed him so much. But she wasn't going to say something like that now. She had no right to do so.
- You should probably go. It's late and I've got to go to the studio early tomorrow and you most probably have morning practice too. And what we're doing right now, makes no sense. So, just leave.
Mesut nodded.
He didn't want to go. He wanted to stay and show her how much he had missed her. But things were so complicated and Vanessa was crying and Mesut wanted to punch himself for that, cause he had made her cry. He slowly made his way to the door. Vanessa was watching him cautiously and Mesut knew exactly, what she was thinking. He knew her that good. And he would be lying, if saying that he didn't want exactly the same thing.
Vanessa approached him once again and her hands were shaking as she touched his face.
- Stop trying. Please. You're making this so hard for both of us. And I only want to have a normal life Mesut.
- You don't mean that. You don't want me to stop trying.
- I do.
- You're lying.
Mesut pressed his forehead on hers.
- Leave.
- But you don't want me to leave.
- Don't make me do something, that I'll regret. You know the effect you have on me Mesut.
- One day, I'll stop trying. I promise. But till then, I'll do whatever it takes for you to be back with me. Cause I had made you happy once, when you were more depressed than ever. And I'll do it again. I promise.
He looked at her one last time, before exiting her house.