A Thousand Years | Mesut Ozil (Sequel to Written In The Stars) [completed]

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Vanessa knew that Mesut had returned from the trainings he had with the national team, firstly because she had done some kind of stalking and secondly because Tanya had returned in the studio as well. And she was all giggling and laughing and behaving nice to everyone and showing of the ring she wore in her hand. And Vanessa had just rolled her eyes in that. But she wasn't going to say anything. It was none of her business. The only words she exchanged with Tanya was for her to give instructions about the scenes they were filming.
Vanessa was surely not in a good mood. But she didn't try to contact with Mesut and he didn't as well. At least he had understood that it just couldn't go on with them.
Vanessa's days were filled with depression and surely her dizziness almost every morning didn't help at all. She felt sick a lot of times but she guessed it had something to do with her mood. Because she indeed felt terrible.
Louisa squeezed her hand.
- Do you want us to go for a drink ?
She asked.
Vanessa thought of it a little.
- I guess, we could.
She simply said.
Leaving the studio, they walked in the nearest club just to have a drink. They kept silent till they arrived there. Louisa had been really supportive to Vanessa and she had really appreciated it. She needed someone to have her back right now. She felt miserable.
The two girls were sipping on their drinks, discussing quietly. Vanessa felt sick once again inhaling the drinks scent.
- I don't know why I feel that way all the time. I don't have to taste something, if I smell it, I'm about to throw up. It's a couple of time now. Actually I'm like that since I came back from Germany.
She admitted.
- You may have to see a doctor.
- Yes, I guess I'll have to. I can't bear with that anymore.
Louisa smiled.
- It's just a difficult period of your life. You'll get through this, don't worry.
Vanessa nodded. She had no idea how was she going to handle the fact that Mesut wouldn't be with her again. She saw him everywhere. She could see his face in all the others. Like for example now, looking at a man across her who was really similar to him. And as if he felt her gaze, the person looked at her. And his eyes opened wide. But Vanessa wasn't mistaken. It was Mesut. And he had noticed her, and he was coming towards them.
- Oh, my...Lou, I'll go to the bathroom. I feel sick.
- Really ? Again ?
Vanessa nodded and tried to make her way in the direction of the bathroom but the club was packed and she just couldn't walk past all these people. And then Mesut grabbed her hand.
- Vanessa.....
He started.
She tried to stare at him but she felt dizzy.
- What....what are you doing here ?
Vanessa managed to ask.
- I'm with Aaron.
He pointed to the dance floor where Aaron was occupied dancing with some girls.
Vanessa felt sick.
- I....I really.....need.....
- Can you hear me for a second ? We didn't have the chance to speak. Listen, I'm not marrying Tanya. I made that clear to her, she's just not eager to listen. And she wants to move in with me, but I told her no Vanessa. You don't believe me, I know that, but it's a misunderstanding. I wasn't supposed to ask her to marry me, it was meant for you. I want you to marry me. And.....are you paying attention ?
- I need to go to the bathroom.
Vanessa said.
- Are....are you okay ?
- No. I'll throw up.
Vanessa freed herself from his grip and made her way till the bathroom. She throw up a couple of times. She felt awful. That drink had really made her stomach upside down. She looked herself in the mirror unable to ignore how pale she was. She was a mess. She needed to go home. She spread some water in her face just to make herself feel a little better. She made her way trembling out of the bathroom. She spotted Mesut chatting wary with Louisa as she approached.
Mesut's eyes remained to her as long as he saw her.
- Vanessa ?
- Lou, can we just go home ? I need to have some rest.
Vanessa said ignoring him.
- Sure.
Louisa responded.
- I'll drive you home.
Mesut said.
- No, Mesut it's okay. We're going together.
Louisa replied instead of Vanessa.
Mesut ignored her.
- No. I'm driving her home. I need to talk to her.
- She's not in the mood of talking. You can talk some other time.
- No. Vanessa take your coat.
Vanessa was too unable not to obey right now. She did what he had asked her to and follow him.
- Louisa can you say to Aaron that I left ?
Mesut asked.
Louisa's face paled a little but nodded.
- Ehm.....sure.
Mesut held Vanessa's hand, leading her outside of the club.
She felt better when the cold air hit her face. She was still confused of what was happening. Mesut kept checking at her, making sure she was okay.
- Maybe something was in your drink.
He commented.
- No, it happens a lot lately.
Vanessa said.
- Why ? What's wrong ?
- I don't know. I'll have to see a doctor.
Mesut nodded.
- You better do.

Mesut checked at his watch. It was a little after two in the morning. Vanessa had thrown up again. He doubted that she had slept at all. He couldn't sleep himself. He was sitting in her couch, not being sure that Vanessa knew that he hadn't left and that he was still there. Mesut's plan was to explain to her what had really happened with Tanya but Vanessa was just feeling sick the whole night, so he didn't attempt it. He was sitting in her couch, head burying in his hands when he heard footsteps.
Vanessa appeared in front of him, dressed in shorts and oversized shirt with her hair being a mess. She looked exhausted but Mesut still considered her beautiful.
She turned the lights on blinding both of them.
- I knew you were still here.
She said sitting beside him in the couch.
She buried her head in her hands and Mesut could hear her cry.
He placed a hand in her arms rubbing her neck.
- It's okay Vanessa. You're having some kind of a flue, I guess.
- I feel terrible. Tonight was worse than ever.
Mesut hugged her tightly, placing a kiss in her hair.
- Go back to sleep.
- And you should leave. I'm just vulnerable at the moment and you're taking advantage of it.
She whispered.
Mesut felt terrible. That wasn't true at all. He was worried about her.
- I'm really sorry that you think that way about me.
- And how should I think ? Anyway, it's not important. Just leave and I'll go back to sleep. Or to throw up. Both options seem okay.
She pushed him away and made her way to her room, slamming the door behind her.
Mesut felt awful. He was going to stay till morning when he had to go to practice. Even if Vanessa didn't appreciate it, he couldn't just leave her alone now.

Vanessa didn't attempt to eat anything the next day. She still felt awful. Only coffee's smell made her stomach go crazy. She knew that Mesut had left only an hour ago. He had stayed the whole night with her. And Vanessa didn't even thank him for that. She was still mad, she was still disappointed, but there was a part of her that screamed that Mesut would never do such thing to her. And he had proved it yesterday night again.
Vanessa drove till the studio and walked in really slowly. They had already started filming the scenes when Vanessa entered.
- Okay, well done, take a five.
Louisa said and approached Vanessa.
- Are you feeling better today ?
She asked immediately.
Vanessa nodded.
- I'm good. Don't worry.
- And what about Mesut.....he didn't do anything, did he ?
Vanessa furrowed her eyebrows.
- What do you mean ?
- He seemed desperate yesterday. I don't know.
Louisa admitted.
- He didn't do anything. He just stayed the night.
Louisa nodded.
- Vanessa....you know about the dizziness and the feeling sick part ?
- Yes ?
- Well,......you and Mesut......
- Isn't he the cutest ?
Tanya screamed making them focus on her.
- He just called to tell me that he loves me. He can't be away from me! We spent the whole night together yesterday and now he's calling just to say that he loves me.
Louisa furrowed her eyebrows.
- I though Mesut stayed with you last night.
She said to Vanessa.
- I though so too. Did I dream of it ?
- No. I think Tanya's the one that dreamt of it.

Vanessa parked her car outside his house. She looked at it for a while, wondering if she gave herself false hopes. She shouldn't do this, but she wanted to thank Mesut for staying the night at her place. And she wanted to apologize for behaving that bad yesterday. Well, maybe Tanya's sayings today had given her strength. Mesut was avoiding her and it was obvious. So, maybe he wasn't completely lying about the fact that he wasn't supposed to ask Tanya to marry him.
Vanessa, made her way to his door and rang the doorbell. She waited there for a minute biting her lip. Mesut appeared smiling and when she saw her, his smile was even more wide.
- Vanessa ?
He asked surprised.
- Hi, I came.....
Voices from inside of the house made her stop.
- Do you have company ?
She asked.
- My mother and sister.
- Oh! I should go then. We'll talk some other time.
- No! Why don't you stay ? You'll meet them. They wanted to meet you.
- Me ? Mesut we're not together.
- But they think we still are.
- What do you mean ?
- Stay. Please.
Vanessa hesitated knowing that she shouldn't stay. But maybe it was Mesut's eyes that convinced her.
- Okay, although I didn't come for this.
- You can tell me why you came later.
Mesut pulled her close to him and kissed her lips gently. Vanessa kissed him back when a voice interrupted them.
- Mesut.........oh, I'm sorry......I didn't mean to interrupt you.
They immediately pulled away and the girl smiled to Vanessa.
- I'm Nese, Mesut's sister. You must be Vanessa.