Adele Please Say That You Love Me

Take It All With My Love (20)

Adele's POV

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"5"
"4"
"3"
"2"
"1" everyone shouted before we all cheered. My first single off 'Breakthrough' is fully out there. I, unlike the release of 'Hello' had no arms never laced around my waist whilst whispering how proud they were. I have to admit seeing just stand next to me, a tear edged my eye.

Jess must have noticed as she came running towards me. When I was having Angelo, Simon was the first person to notice that I wasn't having alcohol. Instead of the love of my life's arms lacing around me, just my daughters. I don't know what I'd do without her.

Jess eventually pulls away from the hug that I was longing for from Simon but never got it, only to look down at her phone.

"Oi Oi, Mum the song has been out 10 minutes enough time to play the whole video once, it's already got nearly 2 million views... and COUNTING!" Jess screamed excitedly.

We the song is around 5 minutes long, I wanted something special for everyone, making up for the lost time. The video was filmed me walking through a Forrest and overcoming obstacles, then at the end coming out into the light stronger than ever and better off. A refection of not only my past couple of years but Jess's too.

I hadn't actually played the new song to Jess until she was in hospital, I was scared sharing it with anyone. Scared they wouldn't like it. It was such a relief seeing the effect the song had on her she absolutely loved it.

That meant the world to me that I was making her proud.

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So it's just was 24 hours since my song came out. Jess just told me it broke the VEVO record after 3 hours, apparently it had 386.2 million views at 24 hours, which is insane. I thinks she is joking. Honestly, I think she is joking, why on earth would it have so many views I knew my Daydreamers would like it but, honestly I didn't know what everyone else would think about it. Apparently, they love it!

My first interviews about the album is today. Surprisingly I'm really chill about it, I think for once me being so honest about what's been going on in my head, helped. I think the reason the song had apparently got ridiculously big was the fact that at some point most people will, is or has been going through a dark period of our lives. Therefore, so many people can relate to it. Jess had just left to go visit Cambridge quickly just to confirm some things before she heads off Monday. So I'm allowed to go on my social media. A huge amount of people are sharing the song with the hashtags #adeleisback and #anthemforlife , just seeing that the song means so much to people illuminated all my previous thoughts.

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The interviews went great, I'm now about to pick Jess up from the train station and take her home. Currently, we're staying in our London house because it's closer to where all the interviews are.

"Mum!!" Jess shouted out engulfing me into a strong embrace.

"My baby" I giggled seeing how happy she was to see me.

"How did they all go?" She quickly questioned as we made our way back to the car,

"Good actually, they're getting better than when I started, I think it maybe as I'm getting progressively more in touch with myself. All my words are just coming from a different more comfortable place" I thoughtfully answered. Me thoughtful? What? Yeah I know.

The journey quickly passed and we both exited out of the car, I'm just so excited to see the love of my life after a long day.

There he sat looking down into his loosely clasped hands. My King. His beard is everything, his eyes are so special,  a perfect pearcing blue in fact. But today the were missing there twinkle.

"Adele" he coldly muttered, " I need to speak to you, Jess please go do a painting or something, I need to speak to your Mum... alone.

Jess sadly walked off basically being rejected by her father, like history repeating itself. She shut the door with a gentle slam, obviously disappointed and upset.

"Si" I began, before he interrupted me.

"Adele" he abruptly said, "Don't 'Si' me".

"What wrong with you Simon, what's happened to us?" I questioned as everything just got to me and I broke down, hysterically crying. I could no longer hold it in.

"I'm sorry Dell" He started.

" SORRY FOR WHAT SIMON" I shouted now getting impatient, before the tears hit me again. "Sorry for not being there recently, being distant, not being home like ever".

"Adele, I'm sorry I don't love you anymore..." the words flowed out of his mouth with ease, no emotion on his behalf at all. All I could do is cry, I need to tell him now but I want to know something first.

"Simon, why?" I said through the Rivers that we're falling down my face. Dreading his response.

"I found someone else" he continues expressing what he was saying with no emotion, words filled with cold and bitterness. I can't help but want to run away from his response.

I wasn't enough.

My question was though, when did he find someone else.

It's almost as if he knew what I was thinking.

Why did he marry me then?

"Well Simon, look, don't get me wrong I know there is no tomorrow because you don't love me anymore. But all I ask is if this is my last night with you, that you hold me like I'm more than just a friend because to me, you'll always be my one true love. Simon can you please give me a memory I can use so I can remember us happy, take me by the hand while we do what lovers do and pretend that tomorrow doesn't exist. To me it at least it really matters how this ends 'cause what if I never love again? Simon you are the love of my life and I don't know if I'll ever love someone like I love you. Let this be our lesson in love, that it may not always be as perfect as sometimes if may seem, let this be the way we remember us, I don't wanna be cruel or vicious, because I still love you, even if you don't love me" I recited some of my All I Ask lyrics that I wrote scared when I thought Simon was going to leave me before. I never thought, especially now that I would ever feel this way again.

" Why is that Delly, I just want to know before I spend this night with you?" he curiously asked making his way towards me.

"I'm pregnant..."