My body is just numb and everything around me seems so dark. The only thing that is motivating me to not give up on myself is my baby boy.I also made a promise to my princess that I was not gonna break.
I started walking down the hallway to get to my baby.I have to show him that his daddy will stay strong for the both of us.
I walked into the room that I left my baby in before I smiled at the sight in front of me.I saw my mom and Selena's parents sitting in the couch with my mom in the middle holding my son.I could tell they already fell in love with him just like I did.
"He's beautiful isn't he." I said "Very beautiful" my mom replied while handing the baby over to his other grandma."he looks just like Jason"Selena's mom said I saw a tear roll down her eye's. "He's the only part of Selena we have left and he's so precious."" What are you gonna name him?"Well I love the name Jaxon but Selena loved Angel."I saw their face light up at the mention of the name."so I was thinking maybe Angel Jaxon McCann Gomez."I saw Selena's dads eyes light up he almost smiled."Gomez?"Selena's dad questioned I knew he loved the idea."I want him to have a part of my princess in his name too,she will still be his mommy forever so I think its the right thing."Selena's dad had tears rolling down his face the next thing he did surprised the hell out of me.
"Thank you son I know you'll be a great dad."he said while he hugged me.""Thank you sir" he nodded at me."we'll watch the baby go fill out his birth certificate""okay let me just give him a kiss."Selena's mother handed over my baby and I started to cry again just by looking at him but this time it was tears if joy."I love you my little angel"I kissed his head and handed him over to my mom."I'll be back."
I went to the nurse to fill out his certificate.It broke my heart that Selena wasn'ther.re with me but I knew somehow she was still here by my side.I filled it out and they put it in an envelope so I can take it home."excuse me miss when can I take my baby home?""after about two days so the mommy can heal then you...I cut her off when my face expression changed.I felt a pain shoot through my chest all over again and I wanted to cry but I wasn't gonna do it in front of her.
"She died" I told her I felt her face change into one if sadness then guilt."I'm so sorry sir you can take him home when you want to"I'm sorry for your loss."I just nodded and walked away while thanking her.I knew if I said anything I'll start to cry loudly and I didn't wanna do that in Front of people anymore.
I walked into the bathroom cause I needed some time to myself. I pulled out my phone to go through my gallery until I found a picture of me and Selena together.
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It was us in the photo booth the night of our junior prom.She was wearing a red dress and her hair was up and I swear she looked just like a princess.That night was also the night that we lost our virginity to each other it was the only time I made love to her and I'll never forget it.
I felt the same pain from earlier and I dropped down to the floor and started to sob quietly.I know I have to be strong for Angel but I never felt weaker in my life. "I miss you so much baby." I just hoped that somehow she can hear me."I won't let you down okay.I'll make our baby the happiest kid ever.I promise"I just sat there letting all my emotions out I knew I had to let everything out cause I didn't wanna keep it bottled in.
