You Can Just Call Me Ally

Chapter 6

I'm now sitting up in my room crying and laughing about how stupid I am. I tear would fall down my flush cheek and a giggles would escape from my lips. It kinda looks like im mentally insane. Whoops.

In the middle of my scary laugh crying I realize that I have never even look at this stuff, not even once. After my mom filmed the video she owuld just put it away and I would never watch the home videos with my family because I would obviously freak out. For some reason now I really want to see what was on those tapes and in those photo albums, but I can't do this alone. I need someone here for me. I dial Travis' number on my phone and listen to the ringing as I wait for him to pick up.

"Hello?" His deep voice answers the phone. I sniffle once and then say hi back to him.

"Ally? Are you ok? Is this about this guy? Caleb?" He asks. I nod forgetting that he couldn't see me.

"Kinda. Can you just come over? I just need your help." I sniffle again.

"Yea sure! I'll be over in 10. See ya then!" He hangs up the phone before I could say goodbye.

Travis has always had a little crush on me, well I kinda like him too, but we are too close to do anything about it. We even came really close to kissing once but then we stopped ourselves and didn't talk for a week because it was so awkward. We never talked about it again or told anyone, not even Aspyn. She is clueless about the fact that we have feelings for each other and we are trying to keep it that way.

Flashback...

"Bye Aspyn, I'll see you Monday!" I yell out the door as she leaves my house from our tradition of scary movie night. I close the door and run back into the living room, jumping on the couch right next to Travis.

I settle back into my previous position of his arm around me and my head on his should, we were this close because I was freezing my ass off and all three of out brains combined couldn't figure out how to use the thermostat.

I pulled the blanket back over myself and held my knees tight in my arms. Travis unpauses the movie and we continue to watch the movie that will probably cause me nightmares for the next month or so. A scary demon child popped out from the side of the screen and I flinched back covering my face with the blanket. I felt his grib tighten around my shoulder as he pulled me closer into his chest.

God he is so sweet.

He paues the movie again and I reveal my hazel eyes from behind the blanket to meet his grey ones.

"You scared?" He asks as a small smile appears on his face and I nod.

"Don't be, you got me here." He widenes his smile as our faces inch closer together until our lips were almost touching.

I switch my focus to his eyes and we stare at each other for a second before I turn away bringing my attention back to the TV. Travis unpaues the movie and scoots away from me taking his arm off from around my shoulder.

Well, this is going to be extremely awkward at school on Monday.

A hear a knock on my bedroom door bringing me out of my thoughts. The door creeks open to reveal Travis' face. He gives me a weak smile and after I show him one back he proceeds to walk into my bedroom shutting the door behind him.

"So," He drags out the 'o' " Why did you need me here?" He askes.

I want to just come right out and tell him about everything that went wrong in my life before I met Aspyn and him, but I can't find the right words to say it. What am I supposed to say? 'Oh yea my dad used to abuse my sisters and I and he kinda raped me a few times but now he is in jail but I still have anxiety over the fact that he is being released next year.' I open my mouth to say what I just thought, but I shut it because the words to use slip away. Instead I pat the space beside me on my bed gesturing for him to come and sit next to me.

"Well, um I not really sure how to tell you this, but my dad isn't my real dad." I look at the shocked expression on his face, fidget around with my fingers and then continue.

"My real dad was arrested when I was in the third grade for abusing my sisters and I. My mother had no clue about it until I told her about it and I just really need someone to share this with and you are one of the people I trust most and Im pretty sure you wont tell anyone." I stop to take a breath when he wraps his arms around me pulling me into a tight embrace.

I can feel the tears stream down my face and roll off my chin onto his navy t-shirt. I cant ask for anyone better to have in my life, Travis is my best friend, maybe even something more.

Like a super best friend? The voice in my head jokes.

He loosens his grip on me and we pull away slightly so we are able to look each other in the eye. Before I knew it he had leaned in and now we are kissing.

Shit. How is this going to work out?

He places his hands on my hips, rubbing circles with his thumbs as we kiss. We fall back on to my bed as straddle myself over him. His hand make there way up my shirt and closer to my bra.

Hold up. No. Allison, stop.

When my own mind calls me Allison I know Im getting myself into some deep trouble.

I break away from the kiss and look at my best friend in the eyes and I both know what we are thinking.

What's the right word for it?

Oh yea, thats it!

Shit.