Lost In Time - Sequel to 'A Kings Queen' (Caspian Love Story)

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What is it like knowing someone you care about is going to die?

it's like the person is slipping through your fingers, you can see the body but there's nothing there, like their soul has been emptied from their head. their deathly cold, and It's hard to process that you'll never hear that person speak again, smile at you again, laugh again, you'll never see them do anything, it's like they were a fragment of your imagination and you grasp onto your memories of them, but the memories all seem like dreams. your life experiences that includes them flashes before your eyes, you keep your hand on their pulse and when it go's its really frightening. you think they'll wake up any minute and tell you to stop crying, but they never do, their skin becomes like stone under your fingers, their eyes vacant of anything. thats the worse part, because you think someone not recognizing you is bad, try looking into a dead persons eyes. it's just nothing there, they'll never carry any frown, wink, blink, hey don't hold anything, there just like an empty shell. un alive, as if they were never alive, they were never real, know-one carried those eyes with them.

It feels like there's a whole weight on my heart, and I'm just letting them slip away. It hurts even more when I look into their eyes, because it doesnt hold that sparkle or personality it used to have. My heart feels like it's sinking. Then It feels like nothing's gonna get better and there's nothing to look forward to. Then at times I'll think what is the point of living my life if they're gone? I'll get jealous and irritated when I see other people around me being happy. It's like why can't I be happy like that, and how can they be happy at a time like this? The closer they are to me, the harder it'll be for me to let go and the longer it'll take for my heart to heal. Sometimes I'll cry a lot over it, other times I'll just be "numb" and emotionless. The world seems to be darker than it was before, and sometimes a little scarier because I'm scared to be hurt even more. The person who died will be stuck in my head for a long time, I can hear their voice, and their image will be imprinted in my mind. It'll seem like they were only part of my imagination, the times we were together are just from a dream and were never actually real.

I was the one that had, will, cause this pain to Kyse and Quinn. There family.

"There isn't long left Olivia" Kyse smile to me and hugged me again, kissing the side of my head. "You are like a sister to me. I know how well you are going to be as the Queen of Narnia. I couldn't be even more proud of you than I am right now."

He moves close to me and whispers in my ears.

"Please look after him" he whispers. "He will achieve great things when he has been given the chance too."

"I will always care for him Kyse." I cry into him. "I love you"

"I am so sorry I got you into this mess" I begged him for his forgiveness. "I am so sorry Kyse and you Quinn too. I never expected this to happen. I am so sorry for that, i really am."

"Do not be sorry Charlotte." Quinn spoke. "I would help you again in a heart beat and I know I am speaking from my behalf and Kyse's"

"He is right Char" Kyse smiled. "I would not dare go back for a second. I remember when we first met. When you nearly tried to kill us"

My mind flicked back to when I first met the two brothers.

I quickly turned around and grabbed one of them putting a small dagger to his throat. I looked at the other and saw they were not human. I looked down to the person I had in my arms and again saw a faun.

"Please we mean no harm" The one in my grasp said and the other looked so terrified.

I felt kind of bad but I did not know I could even trust these two.

"What are your names." I asked forcefully.

"Quinn!" The one in my grasp said.

"Kyse" The other frantically said.

I let Quinn go and put my dagger away slowly still keeping fearful eye contact with them. My eyes went from one to the other.

I smiled as I flashed back to when I met one the two most important people of my life.

"Quinn how can you forgive me? Kyse how can you?" I cry out. "I have put you on death row!"

"Charlotte, you forget. We shall see each other soon" Kyse smiles and kisses my forehead again.

I turned my head to the hourglass. My heart drops. My mouth becomes dry. The last grain of sand seems to drop slowly. Time seems to go slow motion, for that moment in time, I wanted it to stop. To rewind and go back to how things were but without all the trouble of Morgana and her minions.

Time. I hated it.

"Times up!" Morgana screams as she slams open the doors.

With her magic she flies me to the other side of the room. My body smacks to the wall. I scream out in pain.

"Choose you pick!" She mocks and laughs.

She grabs me by the hair and looks down to me.

"Which one!" She shakes my head.

"Kyse" I mumble.

"Who I can't hear you!?" She shouts.

"Kyse!" I scream at her.

She laughs and shoves me to the ground again. With a click of her fingers she made a guard come over to me and hold my head, so I could not move it. So I was made to watch the whole thing.

"Maybe she chose her choice" she smirked. "But I decide both"

NO!