Enhance

Chapter 14 - Summers

Chapter 14 - Summers

 I’ve tried to keep my mind away from Louis Tomlinson. No, it’s not because he’s a bad boy or a bad influence, quite the contrary… he seems too good to be true. And that’s scary, believe it or not, because it’s so easy to fall for someone like him. He’s the kind of guy you take for granted, the one that doesn’t stand out but once you see him you can’t take your eyes off of him. He’s charismatic on a whole different level from all the other guys I’ve dated.

The other guys I’ve dated were nice when I met them, funny, witty and a bit cocky. Never too much. They flirted with me and made me feel special, but only for a while. I don’t know if they got bored of me or if they always pretended, but after a few weeks it was like they didn’t care anymore about making me feel special, they just forgot about me and hurt me without warning me before that it was over.

Louis doesn’t flirt with me, at least not like others have done. He’s sweet and it seems like he wants to know me before even liking me. If that even makes sense. But it’s like all about him is different.

So yeah, I’ve failed at keeping him out of my mind. I find myself constantly thinking of the few times we’ve spent together, the laughter, the jokes and all those smiles. The way he’s always treated me, with such tender and respect.

And I’ve also thought loads of what Jamie says about Louis having a crush on me. And yes, I find myself wishing it was true but then I fight myself saying ‘not yet’. I really, really want to be more careful this time. I don’t want to be deceived into another heartbreak. I’m not closing the door to love or anything, I’m just being careful this time; like I should’ve been all the time.

But even if I’ve thought a lot of Louis I haven’t seen him that much. I don’t know if that’s normal or just because now I hope to see him outside practice, but that doesn’t happen.

As the head of the sport section I always manage to go to the football practices because I like to see the progress of the team and how they are preparing for this season, and because it’s football. I always like to watch it.

During practice I see Louis and he sometimes looks in my direction, I wave at him with a smile but that’s it. That’s as far as it gets because he’s doing his best. He even stays longer after practice and I know he’s working really hard to become a regular so I don’t want to bother him by staying with him after practice. Plus, I don’t think we’re at that level of closeness. Staying with him would clearly point to something that is not happening between us.

But today is different, today he doesn’t stay longer and when I see him going to the lockers like all the other players I run to wait for him outside the building. I have no idea what excuse I’m going to come up for this, but I just want to talk to him, even for a little while.

It is a surprise but not that big of a surprise when he tells me he’s been made a regular. He’s worked so hard so it’s the most logical outcome and I’m so happy for him, so that’s now my excuse to spend time with him. But then when we go to his room for him to change and I see how happy Harry also is for Louis I realise how selfish I’m being for wanting to celebrate with Louis on my own. Harry is his best mate, it’s logical that he wants to celebrate with Louis as well. And that’s the main reason why I invite Harry to come with us, because that’s the best I could do for Louis, right? I’m not exactly disappointed when Harry declines but I try not to show that. I don’t want Louis to notice how eager I am to spend time just the two of us.

I don’t think I fancy Louis yet, but I wouldn’t mind if it’s him, the one I fall for in the future. I’m just praying he doesn’t turn up being a dick after I realise I do have feelings for him. I really hope I’m not cursed or something.