As light consumes and darkness rises

intro to the chapter

As I entered the house I was hit by the scent of burnt coffee and cigarettes. The wallpaper is stained yellow from the years of smoking. I shift my focus to the left only to see a view I wished to never see again. A living room filled with empty beer and vodka bottles and my dad nowhere in sight. My mom died from brain cancer just after my eleventh birthday and about two years later my dad remarried. His second marriage lasted only one year before death desired her life too she died in a car accident with a four by four. After that dad was never the same, I mean can you blame, him both of his wives died and I was totally forgotten, replaced with a bottle. I had been cleaning up his messes for the past four years. I love my dad but I need to stop worrying about him and focus on my school so I don't end up like him, without a job.

I head to the kitchen to grab a trash bag and make my way back to the living room to start cleaning up the bottles and empty food containers. I'm almost finished when I hear a door being slammed shut. Well, this is it, today I'm going to tell my dad that I'm going to live with my grandma and focus on my schooling and to call me when he has his life back together and he is ready to have a daughter again but in a much nicer way of course.

As he enters the room I notice that he seems a lot more aggravated than usual, he was dressed in a suit which means that he went to a job interview and by the way he is mumbling to himself it didn't go well. Melting into his old small recliner chair his eyes darted over to me like a predator noticing it's prey for the first time as I picked up the last bottle and placed it in the bag. "Hey, Dad how was your day?" I asked trying not to anger him while still trying to start a conversation. He continued to just stare at me. Damn didn't grandma ever tell you it's rude to stare I mentally slap myself as I try my hardest not to laugh.

"so how did the interview go?" after the world left my month there was a long silence between us and you could visually see his face harden at the question.

Damn it, this time I want to physically slap myself for asking the one question I knew I shouldn't, if only it was five years ago that question would be completely normal with no chance of angering him but now the damage was done, only this time instead of yelling or storming out of the house to go drink some more he simply grabbed the TV remote and started to ignore me. So I left to go clean the rest of the house and let him cool off. I still need to talk to him but thanks to my big mouth I know now he is no longer in the mood to talk.

It has been two hours of nothing but him ignoring me. Two hours is plenty of time to cool off right so stop staring blankly at the TV and actually talk to me old man! That's it I've had enough.

"Hey, Dad we need to talk" nothing still nothing!?

"I would appreciate it if you could turn the TV off it's kinda important" and with that, he turned the volume down but not off but I'll take what I can get. still not saying a word he turned in his chair to face me.

"Thank you, well I would like to talk to you about the ....s-situation we are in" I wait for some sort of acknowledgment from him that I was speaking, to which he nodded his head for me to continue

"I know that you are trying but I think it would be for the best for both of us if I moved in with Grandma Scott and just focused on school instead of doing school trying to work and then come home and clean the house and take care of you. Daddy, I love you and I want the Best for our family and that's why I'm moving" the look of totally betrayal crossed his face just before it turned back to stone and I heard his voice for the first time today

"do I need to sign anything" his voice would always give away his emotions no matter how hard he tried and hearing it deep and as cold as winter I know I've hurt him and my response to his question would hurt him more. I hang my head hoping I won't have to see his sad face again but speak loud enough for him to still hear me.

"Only one, me and Grandma Scott already took care of everything we just need you to sign Guardianship papers and give them to her"

"what about the school transfer forms and stuff like that?"

"like I said me and Grandma already got everything done we just need you to give her guardianship of me" over the next few days dad signed the papers and I packed my bags and for the rest of my time in that house, he never spoke to me except for a quiet goodbye. Tears stain my cheeks as I walked away from the only place I had ever called home.

Hello everyone thanks for reading I hope you enjoyed the intro sorry it's so short. This is my first time writing a book so go easy on me okay?

I will try to update when I can but no promises hope you read the next chapter

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