Her innocent fluttering heart

CHAPTER 5

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Nida's pov:-

"Hey...hyung!!! You're back!!" Jaemin Said and gave a side hug to jungkook .

Why now... Why are you suddenly here?... You were gone... You... You.

"Oh annyeong oppa.why are you..i mean...I thought you might don't want to live here after....I mean ... u know what I mean..."eunmi asked out of curiosity....

Sorry but sometimes she is so naggie.

Silence.....

Why he is not answering...what's wrong with him....did her question hurt him...oh eunmi... what have u done...

"NIDZ!!..."eunmi screamed in my ear

"Huh!..yeah"I said rubbing my ear

"Are you alright ???"she asked concerned

Uh my baby...

"yeah I'm am fine what would have happened to me guyzz..."I assured them

"no you are not !! You were talking with yourself and NIDZ!! WHY ARE YOU NOT FACING US!!"Jaemin practically screamed

oh yeah i'm not facing them.but wait..that's not my fault.i can't face HIM so casually that nothing had happened...well...he may forget but how can i?? He is the one who is responsible for all goods and bads that I have done and .. Maybe...will remain forever....

"NOT AGAINN..."

"OH shoot I'm sorry i just 'zoned out' but I have to go now...see ya guys..."I said struggling with my bag.

" where ??" Eunmi asked me

Anywhere where he can't cross my way....or vice versa..

" to grab the notes and scribble it down on my 'pages'... don't want to get scold in front of whole class you know..." AND HIM.... I wanted to add but.. "it's kinda embarrassing eunmi please let me go..ple.." I was explaining her when jaemin interrupted in between

" oh shut up!! no one have the right to scold you except me and your family NIDZ...and I mean it."

" I know baby but still I have to do it coz I don't want bad grades..." I lied againwell technically it was right though

"I envy you sometime NIDZ inspite of being such a sleepyhead you still manage to score high!!! I mean how did you do it??"he asked

Ah.. I am flattered

"And yeah would you mind if you turn and face us...." he continued

"Of course I will"..I cupped my mouth another second to regret on what I blurted out.

"And why so?"

oh god now what??

What to do??

run away... Run away...

I furiously went to the library and started doing my work...

Nope. Everything goes in vain

all I was doing was thinking about him..about JUNGKOOK!!..he is back...

Why oh why!?

Uh don't get confused.....

Let me explain...so it was about 5 years ago when he met with an accident!!

Yup he did and it was so dangerous that once I thought I would have lost him that day..
whenever it comes in memory I feel like anyone had smacked twice me on my face...

twice because it was the day when i lost my uncle and

he lost His FATHER...

When he got back into his senses and came to know about his father's death his condition became worser...

I mean one can understand... No scratch that... No one can understand that

he blamed himself for the LOSS and so did his mother!!!

He was so "screwd " and that time all I wanted was to comfort him.. whether it costs me anything.......

I knew that it was not the right time but his miserable condition was breaking me from inside....so I decided "now or never".

And the next day I went to his place and luckily I found him on the terrace all alone...

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Third person POV -

'WHAT THE HELL!!!!! '

She woke up by the sound.. And saw a familiar face.... Very familiar...

"Why are you screaming?? "She asked caressing her neck...

Ugh!! why It was hurting very badly.... she thought

" Why the he'll are you here? "he asked surprised.

" huh! Are you out of your mind?? You didn't remember you were the one who took me here... You seriously didn't remember ?" she asked worried .

He pulled her out of the couch and she collided into his chest... Then he holded his face and pierced his nails in her cheek...

Well that is soo gonna leave some ugly marks

"ouch!! Leave me... Its hurting.." she winced in pain.

"what!! I took you here? Not even in my wildest dream little girl... Stop making annoying excuses and leave right now" he said focusing on the last two words and continued

"and what did you think of yourself huh!! ?? You think that this marriage thingy is gonna happen... Than just keep thinking about it your whole life baby... And for your kind information I will not marry you even if you were the last women on the earth!! Did you get that... That is not going to happen... Not now and never!!!...and you know why?? Because I hate you the most!!! .. "

He was screaming and she was listening..... She was frozen.

" Now get the hell out of here!!! And don't you dare to show me this disgusting face of yours again.. "and with that he pushed her out of his room and slammed the door on her face!!...

She said nothing.. She was not in that condition... She felt hurt, insulted, betrayed, used and what not.. She was just trying to help him out but what he did.. Just used and throw her like a tissue paper!!!

She was just there to pacify him. To tell him it was not his fault. That destiny is a weird thing.

It was all good.
He was actually listening to her.
She was actually having a proper conversation with him.
They were merely just talking.
Telling and listening each other's misery.
And after talking they fell asleep.
But what happened then?

He was all okay till now. But what happened today?

What did she do? Why was he this angry?

What was her fault? Why was she treated like this?

Is this going to be her fate!...

She went to her room crashed on her bed, snuggled into her pillow and cryed her heart out.... And soon dozed off.

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TO BE CONTINUED.