City of broken dreams

Chapter 2

How did I do this to her? She could be anywhere, she could be dead. What if she never returns I will never get to hold her again, kiss her again, she will go the rest of her life hating me, and I don’t think I can live with knowing that. I just need a chance to explain, she does not even know what happened. 

"This is my fault isn't it? all of it?" Jace said, with such sadness in his voice. "Of course it is! Jace she loved you so much and she trusted you with everything, her whole world was you, but apparently that was not enough for you and now look at where we are, you without the person i am guessing you still love, and because of you I am not worried about my best friend!" Izzy said, By the end she had calmed down a small amount as thought the yelling had helped her get some of her anger out. Jace was leaning in the doorway, his head in his hands. "Iz I am so sorry, I need to find her! I will bring her back to you, to me... she won’t come back will she? " It was clear how much Jace did care about Clary you could hear it in the way he spoke. "I am not too sure Jace, give her a few days first, then we will look for her. In the meantime come down and eat something." Iz sounded worried realising how Jace felt. "Are you kidding, no offence I am not hunger Iz, but you and Alec go ahead, and i can’t wait day's i will give her till tomorrow night" Iz could tell Jace was not even going to wait that long but pretended to believe him. They each left the room, Alec first followed by Izzy, then last was Jace he took the door handle and went to turn of the light, but right before the light switch was off, he saw it. The picture and the ring. As soon as his eyes went to this, his body followed, slowly as thought he was hoping it was not real. Once he reached the picture and ring, that was it. Jace broke down, he picked up the photo and held it close, he sat on the bed and cried.  

I can't let her go, I need her, I love her, I am going to find her, I will not be the reason for this! if only I knew where to start or if she still loved me. Jace realised if clary still loved him there is one thing she would have taken with her, the witch light Jace gave to Clary the first time they kissed. Jace ran over to the draw, and it was empty, this made Jace smile. She loves me, i don't know how, but she is still in love with me. 

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Clary was just walking, she began to get tired fast, so she went to the only place she could think of that was anywhere close to her, Luke’s house. Luke and Her mum, had gone away on their honeymoon, they won't be back for a month or so. Clary thought that was a really long time for a honeymoon but did not mind, they were happy in love, and at the time so was Clary. Thinking of this made Clary feel worse. She entered the house and went to the bed room, where she had always slept, and unpacked what she needed for the night but as well as something else, in her hand. The witch light. Why do i find such comfort in this stupid thing. I need to move on from Jace Lightwood, Wayland, Morgenstern, Herondale, whoever he is! but I can’t I am in love with him! he treated me horribly! but we have been thought so much it fells almost stupid to want to break up over something that would be classified so mundane. I stayed with him even when he had a knife to me, but that was not Jace, he was possessed, but this boy who had cheated on her, was Jace, the one Clary was so madly in love with. She was lying in bed, holding on tightly to the witch light. she ended up falling asleep, holding the witch light. 

When Jace woke, he was hoping he would wake up and this had all been a horrible dream but when Clary was not lying next to him he's hopes were shattered much like Clary's heart. He was already planning on how to find her. he made a list of everywhere she could possibly be, and he began looking. But he knew Clary and she would not stay in the same spot unless she wanted to be found. Did she even want t be found? Did she care about any of this anymore? 

Clary woke hoping it had been a dream also, when she found the witch light in her hand and her waking up at Luke’s she knew it was true. The boy she would have done anything fro had broken her heart. I wonder if he is looking for me? "Stop! stop thinking about him Clary, you are better than this! you know you don't want to be found"  but she did not convince herself, maybe she really did want to be found, maybe she wanted him to know her so well, to be able to find and he would have the best reason for everything and she would be able to just forget everything. But she knew that was not going to happen. 

Izzy, walked into Jace’s room to find he was already awake and gone, but then she heard him, she was not surprised to find him where she did. He was in the training room, whenever he had a problem he would train until he found the answer.  "Jace, you need to eat" only one day had passed and somehow Izzy could have sworn he was already getting skinnier but she tried to convince herself she was going mad! "I am not hungry Iz!" Jace was replying while punching and swing his sword and fists. Izzy would not take no, she walked to Jace in the middle of the training room, and just hugged him, letting him know it was ok. "I need her Iz, she is my everything" 

Clary was staring at her phone, 10 missed calls Jace, 9 missed calls Izzy and 1 missed call Alec. She automatically went to dial Jace’s number and as soon as she pressed call, she hung up the phone, so angry at herself for trying to contact him already! Man up Fray! Clary told herself.