Forever

Chapter 13: Hayden (again)

"there's only one bed" I say stating the obvious

"yeah" she says nervously. Nervous? why would she be nervous? around me of all people. I'm no one to her I don't think. she's everything to me.

No hayden. stop. you can't feel this way about her. she would never and could never EVER feel the same way.

But how do I feel?

"So what should we do?" she says with a small smile and her face is slightly red.

"I mean we slept together before. Its not werid were just friends anyway." I say and my chest hurts because the words could not be more wrong. we aren't just friends and I don't want to be just friends but she does so I have to be the same way. Even if it's only acting on my part.

"right.." she says and looks away. It looks as if she's battling something inside of her.

"well I'm tired and I need to get to sleep. now!" I say trying to shift the akward mood to a lighthearted one.

"me too!" she says equally as exaggerated

We both climb into bed and I can't help but look back on the first time we were together in a bed. I watched her sleep and saw as her angry features turned into relaxed ones. She was so beautiful. Is so beautiful. I should stop thinking these thoughts in my head. But as long as they stay that, in my head, It doesn't really effect anything. Right?

She's in the small bathroom now changing into an oversized t shirt I gave her from my car. I am excited to see her in my shirt for some reason.

She steps out and I was expecting her to keep her leggings on but she comes out of the bathroom wearing nothing but the t shirt and what I can only assume is underwear underneath. She seems to catch my gaze and pulls the shirt up slightly revealing a pair of black running shorts.

"Where did you get those?" I say questioningly " I thought we forgot to get any clothes"

"we did but these were in my purse for some reason" she says laughing that same amazing laugh

"let's go to bed, we have a long day of driving to nowhere tomorrow"

"agreed" she says as she pulls the cheep sheets back and climbs in.

We drift off to sleep and her face fills my dreams. Her smiling beautiful face.

When I wake up I'm slightly confused but the realization of where I am relaxes me. I look down and in my arms is a sleeping mess of dark hair and light skin on top of me. I pull out from under her and set her down gently. I'm going to go get breakfast. That will be a good start to the day. I laugh a little to myself as I look down at Carter with her arms and legs strewn about the small bed.

When I get in the car I decide on breakfast sandwiches.

I pull up to a small diner and order our food. I remember bacon not sausage on carter's from when we were little and used to hang out all the time..
When the food is ready I ask for a bag and make my way out of the glass door.

"Hayden?" says a small and familiar voice

"jackie?" I say just as questioningly

"Yeah! How have you been?"

"I'm okay how about you!"

"I'm good" she says with that same diomond smile I remember

"hey what are you doing today" I ask not even thinking

"nothing" she says as she approaches me and grabs my hand "maybe we could hang out" She looks down then looks back up into my eyes and has a flirtatious smile playing on her lips.

"actually we were just getting going.."

"we?"

"oh yeah carter and I were going on a little road trip of sorts" I say laughing "I actually need to get back to her now"

"maybe I could follow you there and we could hang out before you left? and I could meet carter." she says in her feminine voice

"yeah I guess sure, but we need to leave in about an hour" We don't actually need to leave in any time but the idea of spending a long amount of time with jackie hurts my head. I would be so akward.

When I pull into the motel parking lot I almost expect jackie not to pull up but sure enough she does.

She gets out of her expensive car and walks over to mine. "let's go" she says cheerily

"yeah okay" I say with a fake happiness

We walk up the steps and I fumble with the key to get us in. When we get inside Carter is on the bed sitting down and looking extremely sad.

"what's wrong" I ask as she looks up to me

"I though you left me" she says as she makes her way to me.

"I would never do that"

She wraps her arms around my neck and hugs me. "sorry" she says "I was just afraid that you left me" she says suprisingly sweetly

I hear footsteps enter the tiny room and Carter let's go of me.

"who-"

"I'm jackie!" Jackie says

"Umm" Carter looks at me

"This is jackie" I say rubbing the back of my neck "she's my ex"

I watch as all of the color drains from carter's face and she looks as if she might cry.