Look on the bright side...

☆This past week

What happened this past week.
This past week.
I was doing fine before.
I'm getting weaker again.
It's all been a haze, a blur in my robotic mind, losing some screws everypassing moment.

I don't feel okay. My mother keeps telling me that I'm useless everyday. My father hasn't visited in a while. Maybe he's gone for good now. My friends aren't here anymore. They left me alone, probably forgetting about my "issues" again. I haven't slept since my last chapter. I hear things, my eyes are turing red, my limbs are telling me to lie down and cry.

I had a panic attack yesterday.

In front of my entire class. And another one. I was going to give my speech, and halfway through, boom. It happened.

I want to give up already. I have started staying up and staring out my open window, wondering what would come if I just tried to fly.

I have some friends.
that actually care.
that actually worry about me.
i can only think of 3.

thank goodness that i'm willing to stay alive for them.