Eccedentesiast

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「Dae's」

We walk out to the street where there is heavy evening traffic. Enormous hoods and bumpers. It's cold, I put my both hands to the pocket of my pink jacket-- it's a big jacket that could cover my face with its hood over my head to make sure I'm fully covered. Perhaps, walking will ease this headache. I let the cool evening wind blow into my own thoughts. At the precise moment, I feel awkward. Like, really awkward. I don't know why but I suddenly felt sorry for this man beside me. My head would burst with questions of what happened and why. Then, quite abruptly, a bird flew in front of me, straight to a tree above us. As I looked up at it, the hood of my jacket fell back off my head. That bird is tough as anyone, existing out there in the cold evening wind with no shelter or what. Suddenly, I was shocked when he pulled back my hood over my head. I turned my head to see him slightly smiling while I just sighed out loud. I hug my arms tighter across my chest. I initially think it's the evening wind causing a chill but no. I have many things to ask him but I do not really know where, when and how will I start.

❝I am sorry but may I know why are you here again?❞ I decided to start talking to break the silence between us.

❝Well,❞ I waited for him to continue, I raised my eyebrows as I continued crossing my arms over my chest and stared at him. ❝I missed you! It's so good to finally see you again.❞ He answered, messing my hair.

❝I want a good excuse. And can you stop messing my hair? Not funny.❞ I said, irritated. He sighs, sweeping my hair behind my ear.

❝About earlier, do you feel better now?❞ He asked, concerned. ❝Will you be alright? You sure you're okay?❞

❝Yes, I am fine. Thank you for asking.❞ I answered, truthfully. ❝But again-- will you please stop changing the topic!? Answer me, what on earth are you doing here?❞ I walked fast as I could but I knew he was walking faster and was starting to catch upon me.

❝I am not used to it.❞ He gently pulled me toward him.

❝Not used to what?❞ I met his gaze and shrugged.

❝Not used to you-- not being around me.❞ I was quite shocked but I couldn't help but laugh. What did he just said? Seriously? ❝Can we go back to where we used to be?❞ He stopped and I waited for him to continue, which he did. ❝I know it's not going to be easy and we can't just go back to being friends exactly like we were before.❞

❝You mean,❞ I cleared my throat and gathered more courage to continue talking. ❝We us best of friends?❞ It isn't going to be easy to go back tho. He nodded and smiled now and then, encouraging me to go on. I thought for a moment and continued, ❝Okay.❞

He smiled from ear to ear, ❝You don't know how happy that makes me.❞ He suddenly hugged me and held on for about fifteen seconds. When I finally raised my face, he kissed both of my cheeks.

I was totally shocked. I can't describe how troubled I felt at the moment. I can't think straight. I can't even think of words to say.

He gazed at me and suddenly smiled, again. I will never forget that smile. He had this kind of smile, a smile which I've never ever seen before-- it gave me the creeps as well, though. I don't know why.