How To Love ♡ (URBAN) (ON HOLD/STILL EDITING)

BREAKDOWN

"So whatt are you saying Juju?" Kennedy asked Julian.

"Im saying.." He paused. "Im saying.. I want you to be my girlfriend." He stated.

Kennedy mouth quivered as she heard Julian's confession. She couldnt say she wasnt expecting it because they've been talking for six months, but time sure does fly fast.

"I know, you're still grieving but Kennedy, Just give me a chance. Im not going to leave or hurt you."

"And how do I know that?"

He didnt say anything but his eyes looked down. 

"Exactly." Kennedy shook her head.

"What do you mean 'Exactly' ?"

"You dont have the answers Julian! You dont got the answers!"

"Chill Kanye." Julian sighed.

Kennedy took a deep breath. "Cant you see? Dont you understand? This isnt a joke Julian? I take this to heart." Kennedy said as she placed her hand ontop of her chest.

Julian placed his hand's ontop of his forehead as he took a deep sigh. He slowly raised up his head, and began staring at the wall.

"What's wrong Julian? Why you so stressed now?"

Julian shook his head before opening his mouth to speak.  "Kennedy I have been here for you before and after Vincent's death. Im sorry, I apologize for caring.. my bad. I have dedicated all of my free time to you, I go out of my way for you all the time and

try my hardest to make you happy. I've even put my love life on hold because of you. Yes I know It might be soon but its been eight months since Vincent's death and five months since we've been talking. All Im asking for is the next step. I need love to."

Kennedy was speechless. He was telling the truth. He has been here for her when no one else really was.

"Julian, I think you should just leave.." Kennedy placed a hand over her forehead as her legs began to shake.

"Kennedy, I am not leaving." Julian stated calmy.

"Get out! Go! You've been ruining my life. Get the fuck out !"

Julian just shook his head, stunned by Kenndy's harsh words.

"LEAVE!" Kennedy barked as she got closer to Julian's face. They stared at one another eye to eye as Kennedy's chest heaved up and down.

Still remaining contact, Julian stood up and grabbed his leather jacket from off Kennedy's couch and began to walk out.

"Good bye Kennedy." Was the last thing he stated, before slamming her door closed.

--

Alicia Key's voice boomed out Kennedy's stereo.

"I keep on fallin'

In and out of love

With you

Sometimes I love ya

Sometimes u make me blue

Sometimes I feel good

At times I feel used

Lovin you darlin'

Makes me so confused"

By this time, the tears were rolling out of Kennedy's eyes and her mascara was now rolling down her cheek. Kennedy was now singing along to Alicia Keys, but for once Kennedy was singing out of anger.

Kennedy  stood up abruptly as she swung a glass frame towards her wall, making it break. "Ahh!" Kennedy screamed as she picked up vase and threw it against the wall just like her frame, making it break.

"I fucking hate this shit!" Kennedy yelled as her crying began to take over her voice, making her voice croak.

 Kennedy slammed her body against the wall. "Lord, why me?" Kennedy questioned as she looked up. "What have I done to deserve this?" Kennedy cried as she placed her hand onto the wall and began sliding down, making her crouch down into a fetal position.

Kennedy cried for hours that night. She let it all out.

Her 'family' .

Vincent.

Her past.

Julian.

Why was she so unlucky?

--

The next morning Kennedy woke up in the same position she was left in; the floor. Carefully she stood up, scared she would step on a piece of glass.

"Change." Was all Kennedy said as she walked into her bathroom. Taking a hot 45 minute shower, Kennedy processed a lot. She really needed change.

After wrapping herself into her pink towel, Kennedy approached her mirror while flipping her hair back and forth over her shoulders.

"Hm."

Pulling out a pair of scissors from out her drawer, Kennedy began to feel scissor happy. Grabbing her wet hair, Kennedy began to measure her hair with her fingers and began to cut. Before she knew it, her hair was now cut into a pixie cut.

--

Kennedy picked up her phone, and stared at a number that she hasnt called which has seemed like forever.

Putting the phone aginst her ear, Kennedy let the phone ring.

"Hello?" A woman asked.

"Mom?"