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Chapter 1: Flashback

It's afternoon now, and the first people have come to the swimming spot. I wonder how they will react to the body. It's Cecilie and Alex, they as very tomish girls, they seem nice at first glance, but in the end they will betray you. They quickly chanced to their bikini, I was standing under water, watching my body. It was starting to go further down towards the bottom now, motionless and cold. One leg tied to a big rock. I heard someone dive into the water, I smiled at the sight. I couldent wait for them to discover it. The body. Would they be happy now? Would they smile out of joy? Did I do something right for once? Then, finally, Alex dived into the water, and her hand made connection with the cold hand of my body. She seemed panicked at the feeling, then she hurried towards the surface. I grinned slightly to myself. They would be happy, right? She dived back down, together with Cecilie and together they grabbed my leg and started to drag me towards the surface.

Their reaction was not what I was hoping for. They seemed emotionless at first, then they screamed, then they cried and ran away. Feeling angry, sad and happy all at once, was wierd. In the end the emotion of sadness took over, I jumped out of the water, and sat down on the surface. When I was still alive I had often been wondering what it would feel like to sit and walk on water, however now that i was dead and weightless I knew, and it wasn't really that exciting anymore. What would have been teardrops while I was alive was now black dots. And when they hit the water they made small waves, as if someone had thrown in a small rock. Wierd things like this always got me in a good mood somehow.

I was still sitting on the water when police came back, together with Cecilie and Alex. As the policemen saw the body they hurried closer. I left as a car came and took away the body, I was free to go where ever I wanned now, without ugly stares and comments. So I left to the mall,  I wanned to know how fast the rumor would spread. With cellphones and everything, things went a lot faster then 100 years ago.

As I enterd the mall, in my ghostly pale body I had fun walking through people, it seemed to give them the creeps. 'a ghost at the mall...' I chuckeld to myself. I walked through walls and even into the boys toilet. I had always wonderd what it looked like in there. Thought I knew how the boy's toilet looked like at School, as my, so called, classmates, kicked me in there. But this was very different. It wasen\t humiliating, I wasen't forced, and nobody could see me. Even thought this was my first day as a ghost, I felt like I knew exacly what to do, and it was fun! Fore the first time in my, well, death? I felt free! I felt like I could do anything.

I found my favorite shop and sat down, it was a old bookshop. Nobody except for a old lady behind the desk was there. The walls were a dark red color and the shelves were dark brown, almost black. I used to love this, I still did thought. My favorite section used to be love stories, I would often fantasize about finding someone who would accept me. But I doubted that would ever happen, and it most be impossible now. Thinking this, it got me depressed, so I went to the comedy section, this didn't cheer me up either. So, 'How about Thrillers?' I thought to myself as I moved through the shelves. At the very back of the store there was almost no light, and the one that was still working was flickering like that from a horror movie. I looked through the selves and pulled out a dark blue book  without any form of name on it. Choosing the unknown was something I always used to do. I turned around, just to see a dark haired boy behind me. He wore a long black coat. I blinked, and then he was gone.