How To Love *sequel to 1D Chairty Basketball Game*

Here We Go Again

*Niall's POV*

"She has anxiety problems so that would explain why she fainted while in the crowd. Especially with the cameras. For her health this is really bad. And as for her wrist, she has a big fracture and we will just put on a cast and it should be all healed within 1-2 months 3 tops." The doctor told me, looking down at her clipboard.

"Thank you. When can I take her back to her apartment?" I asked.

"After we put on her cast and get a later appointment she'll be all good to go home. And we'll give you her pain killers to take home with you." She smiled and walked back to Lydia's room.

"Thank you." I smiled as she left.

I waited for her to leave the room and I went in with Lydia.

"Ok, so why the hell did you not tell me you had anxiety problems!?" I questioned her.

"Niall, I'm bipolar, bulimic, and anorexic. How could you have not known?"

"You seem like you don't have any problems. You look alright!"

"We've already gone through this Niall, I'm not alright. I'm nowhere near alright." She whispered the last part.

I stayed quiet.

"Do you know hard it is to wake up every morning and see all these ugly scars on your wrist! And the worst part is that you did this to yourself! I have to live everyday knowing that I tried to kill myself and didn't succeed! I wanted to die! I still do! It's so hard Niall! I have to look at the people I love and know that I hurt them, because I was selfish!" She yelled at me, tears running down her face.

"Lydia, I.....I didn't mean to make you cry." I sighed, now knowing that I hurt her.

"No! Wait, the worst part was that you're apart of me self harming! I loved you and you made me feel like I wasn't good enough for you! You made me feel stupid! You made me want to hate myself even more than I did!" She cried.

"Lydia, I'm so sorry. Please forgive me." I told her, my eyes starting to water.

"I don't know if I can. You might change." She bitterly said.

"I'm sorry if this hurts you but someone has to put you in your place. I saved your life! Twice! I would appreciate it if you were a little bit more nice!" I yelled at her, me teeth gritted.

"Niall. Don't bring that in right now. That has nothing to do with this."

"You really are bipolar." I said and walked out of the room.

"No shit Sherlock!" She yelled, I could hear the smile in her voice.

She forgives me.

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Short chappy! Sorry.