Is this love?

Cold ::1::

--Erens P.O.V--

•Flashback•
"MOM!" I screamed as my dad beat her with a beer bottle.
"Carla you useless piece of shit!" My dad shouted as he continued smashing the beer bottle on my moms head.
"NO!" I shouted clenching my fist. I looked at my mom and began to let more tears fall from my eyes.
She gave me a weak smile, mouthing the words 'I love you' As my dad beat her to death.
I cried, and cried, convincing myself she wasn't dead. My dad threw the broken near bottle at the wall and walked up to me. I saw a fist form in his hand and he punched me in the face making blood gush from my nose.
"This is all your fault Eren!" He yelled in my face while spit fell on my face. He yanked my hair pulling me up and threw me against the wall. Everything is going black. No light. The only thing I feel is the cold. Mom.
•end o flashback•
I wake up suddenly to the feeling of tears forming at the corner of my eyes. I want to use the bathroom but I'm scared to step a foot out of this room knowing my drunk dad can be anywhere. I have never considered him as a dad after the incident that happened a month ago with my mom. She's dead now and the only thing I have to remember her is a necklace with a golden key on it that has both our names carved into it.
Today's my first day of school. I would begin attending Maria high school starting today. I'm one hour early and I thank myself for not waking up late.
I listen for any sign of my dad before I open the door. When I open the door the first thing I see are beer bottles scattered on the floor and my dad standing in front of the restroom door.
My eyes open wide and I try to rush back into my room but I'm to late. He yanks me back by my arm and slams me into the wall.
I wince in pain as I fall to the floor.
"Why the fuck are you waking up early Jeager!" He yells and begins pounding punches and kicks into my skinny body.
I silently cry and plead for him to stop, but he dosent.
A sharp pain begins to form in my rib cage and I yelp, screaming my moms name.
"ITS YOURE FAULT YOURE MOMS DEAD! YOU KILLED MY LOVE" He shouted at me as I screamed in agony.
It hurts as I begin to feel numb and all I can process in my head is the cold temperature. It's cool. So so cold.

---AUTHORS NOTE---
Well, I'm crying at my own story.
I apologize for the shortness
By Brats,
Love,
Levi0Hechiou