Anime One-Shots

Male! Kotori X Male! Reader: Spicaterrible

~Nobody's POV~

Kotoru sat his desk looking at the stars from his window as a light breeze blew, gently causing the leaves to be swept away. It was such a peaceful and calm night. Kotoru rarely felt this calm with all his thoughts of a certain boy in his mind.

'Where could he be right now?' Kotoru wondered.

The light-brown haired boy began to think of the secret love of his life. The one who he wanted to confess to so badly but was just too afraid. He kept his feelings locked away deep inside, never even once letting any evidence that he had them show.

"If we're friends everything is alright but if we're lovers it's just terrible," Kotoru whispered quietly, tears beginning to run down his cheeks.

Kotoru then thought,

'Well it can't be that terrible, right?'

He looked over at his phone that was sitting on his pastel green colored sheets. He slowly began reaching for it when thoughts of everything that go wrong while confessing and in a relationship flowed to his mind.

He hesitated and withdrew his hand back to his desk.

"No, I can't ever tell him," Kotoru whispered, more tears replacing the ones that had fallen a few minutes earlier.

'I love you so much.' Kotoru thought.

His past, his present and hopefully his future all existed within the boy his heart so longly desired. He wished to voice them but he couldn't. It was too painful. Even if Kotoru were to voice his feelings to his secret lover and get rejected they wouldn't disappear.

Kotoru knew that.

Right now his love for the boy swirled in his stomach and made him feel sick. They were almost forcing to be let out. Kotoru wanted open up but it was truly frightening. He wanted to change that but alas, he couldn't. He didn't want to feel the pain that he hadn't even felt yet, he's scared of it.

'The stars are terrible,' Kotoru thought in sadness.

Looking at the night sky, he looked to the east. Grey clouds slowly making their way towards him. A sign that tomorrow wouldn't be so great. Thinking back on the days he spent thinking of you and then ending made him think,

'If it's a coincidence that he loves me back would that be okay?'

'No, it'd be terrible either way'

Even thoughts of confessing were becoming painful. Sadness overflowed in his heart but Kotoru suddenly decided,

"If I give him my heart to hold, I know he wouldn't drop it, I want us to become one, but if I don't

tell him that dream will never come true, I won't keep these feelings inside, I will confess but... I

have to step forward first. I want to open myself for him but if I keep lamenting over my love I

won't change."

Kotoru whispered, all the thoughts he had that night suddenly flowing back.

He wanted to spend the rest of his life with him, his wishes to voice his feelings were very strong but he was just too afraid. If he were to confess and be turned down, the feelings would never disappear. He wanted to open up but it was too frightening. He trusted you with his heart and he desired to become with you, however, if never conveyed his feelings, these dreams would never come true. He would not keep his feelings inside anymore and he would express them but to do that, he would have too open up himself and stop lamenting over his love for you.

Looking at his phone, he took a deep breath and reached over for it. As he unlocked it and began searching for your number in contacts he began to hesitate.

"No."  He scolded himself, and took another deep breath.

Looking at your contact name and then up at the stars, he whispered

"The stars are truly terrible."

He then, pressed the call button.