CHAPTER THREE:
We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone. The only people that truly loves me are my parents and Kim. I think Kyle loves me but not in the way I want. I don't know why my parents love me because we have nothing in common, never talk and they're never home, always working. The only time they ever talk to me is when they need or want something. Oh and Charlie loves me. He sleeps on my bed with me every night. Emily doesn't go near Charlie. She thinks he has germs.
Its been two days since I was scared for life at the sight of Emily with her tounge down Kyle's throat. What does he even see in her. I mean she is a nasty, uptight little cow who has OCD and walks around acting like she's better than everyone else. As I write down my feelings aggresivly in my diary, (yes, I have a diary) I let all my anger out. "I HATE HER" I wirte in my messy handwriting. I hate how she acts. I hate how she is dating Kyle, I hate how my anger suddenly turns into tears. I know I should'nt hate her but I do. I like nothing about her, although sometimes she brings home delicious doughnuts (you know the heavenly pink frosted ones) from Denford Bakery. She works there and gets to being home left overs. I continue to get my feelings off my chest as tears flow down my rosy cheeks untill I hear the doorbell ring.
It must be Kim. We go to school together everyday. Even though it now is week 4 of term 1, It is still hard walking through the hall and have every person judge you and stare at you as if I have blue hair with red glitter in it. Its hard being different. I know I'm not the most popular person or the prettiest but people really need to know its rude to stare. I always love having Kim with me. She's different aswell. I quickly wipe away the tears I run down stares and open the door. As expected I see Kim's huge smile as she say's in a bubbly voice, "come on, freak, we don't want to be late for first period of hell."
As we arrive at our high school, Casslebury College, we walk up the steps leading into the main hall. Kyle's standing in the corner talking with some friends. He's probably the most popular guy in school. He is talking with his friends Nick and Angus. They're alright I guess, although I've never spoken to them. He looks so perfect right now. His messy brown hair sits wonderfully on his head. He sees me and walks over to the awkard girl known as Samara Jones. He gives me a warm hug and I feel his strong arms wrapped around my little body. I take in his scent for the couple of seconds we touch.
"So Angus' friend Michael is having a house party on Saturday, thought you and Kim could come?" Kyle suggests as he looks at both Kim and myself.
I look at Kim and know that she would love to go. Her crazy fun personaity is all about parties and dancing and being crazy. I love Kim. But what about Emily. If she's going with Kyle I don't think I want to go.
Before I can say anything, Kim says excitedly but I can tell she's trying to act cool.
"Of corse we want to come, is that even a question aha!"
"Well great, Sammy, will I see you there?"
"Yeah, sure, is Emily going?"
Kyle hesitates because he knows that Emily and I aren't excatly friends.
"Well yeah, Angus invited her but I think she's going with some friends. I could come pick you guys up if you wanted, I guess? "
I have a little panic attack. This is like the closest thing to a date with Kyle that I will probably ever get. Even though he has a girlfriend and she will be there and Kim will be there, I'm so excited.
"Cool, see you then. We better go, don't want to be late for English or Ms Murray might pop a vein again" I joke and Kyle laughs.
I walk off smiling whislt listening to my enthusastic bestfriend go on about the party. "We can go shopping for a new dress, Oh and shoes, maybe we could even get our nails done!" She knows I'm not much of the girly type but I will have to step up a bit for the party. As she continues to go on about it, Emily stares at me feircly and must of heard that Kim and I are going to the party with Kyle. Gossip spreads as fast as lightning. I smile at her mockinly as her folds her skinny arms over her chest with a angry expression on her face.
I think she knows that I have a crush on Kyle and personally I think thats one of the main reasons she dates him. To make me angry. I cant beleive I'm saying this but they do look like the perfect couple. Whatever, I try to forget about everything and focus on getting to class in time.
