Promise we will be friends no matter what?

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Grayson P.O.V
We have been watching Netflix for the last two hours and she hasn't stopped crying. They are silent but there are constant tears going down her checks. I feel so bad and I know this is much harder for her because she witnessed it.
       Plus, no matter what, even if she said it was just in 3rd grade I know that they where in love. Everyone in the school, even the bitch, I mean witch. Screw it we all knew she was a bitch. Even the principal knew they would grow up and get married one day. I was interrupted from my thought when she lightly sniffles trying not to disturb me. Even when she has it worse than people at times she's always worried about others. She's not very good at expressing emotion, but when it comes to talking to others when they are upset or angry; she is one hell of a motivational speaker.
Emily's P.O.V
We just finished our second movie and I figured taking a shower or bath would help me get my mind off of things.
"Hey Gray, I'm gonna go take a bath."
"Ok, do you want me to put your towel in the dryer so it'll be warm when you get out?"
He knew I liked it when my towel was warm when I got out of the bath. This is why he is my best friend, I love him so much, in a sibling way of course. He's the brother I never had.
"That'd be great, thanks Gray. " I still had my head on his chest when I said this so I was looking up at him. But after I had finished my sentence I kissed his cheek and went into the restroom.
I went to go get my towel from under the sink when something fell. I looked down and saw my razor. I sighed and put it behind my shampoo trying not to relapse. Right as I did Gray came in to grab the towel and I quickly turned around.
He raised his eyebrow and gave me a confused look. He slowly grabbed the towel and walked out still confused.
I got undressed turned on the water,and got in the tub. I look my razor and stared at it debating wether I should do it or not. I tried so hard to convince myself not to do it. Eventually, I realized why shouldn't I? There's no point. The guilt ate at me and I had to do it to partially to punish myself. I made small cuts considering Gray was still out there. I made three one for the memory of it, one for the date of today, and one for me being so ugly. Well, and selfish at the moment.
In the middle of my cuts Gray came in
"Hey I put your sweatpants-" he suddenly stopped and looked at me with upset angry and shocked eyes.
(A/N she had a swim suit on just in case Gray decided to come in)
"EMILY WHAT THE FUCK!?! WHAT ARE YOU DOING??? WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS???" he said as tears were threatening to spill from his eyes.
"Gray it's ok it re-"
"Oh my gosh no Em it's not ok."
He picked me up bridal style and put the towel on me with his other hand.
My head was against his chest and I whispered "Gray i'm sorry... I'm sorry I didn't tell you about this sooner-"
"Wait... This isn't your first time..?"
At this point Gray had finally let the tears fall from his eyes. He was crying so much i'm pretty sure he produced more water then I did blood when i was on my period.
By this time I was already on the bed and he was helping me clean my cuts.
"Emily Ann, have you done this before?"
I looked down in shame..
He grabbed my wrist and didn't see any scars so i pointed down to my thighs he slowly lifted the towel to see scars on the inside of my upper thigh.
He let even more tears spill out of his eyes and I jumped on him and hugged him with all my life.
"Gray i'm sorry please stop crying. I messed up and i'm sorry Grayson. It just momentarily helps with the pain."
in-between sobs he made me promise I would never do it again so I promised. I felt he needs some time alone and to register so I told him I was going to finish my bath and we could talk about it when I got out.
He was very upset but let me continue with my bath as soon as I got in memories flew into my head

Flashback
"E , let go of me you are squeezing me too tight" I giggled as Ethan and I where hugging our little third grade selves.
"I can't help it Em... Your just so darn beautiful" He said with that amazing toothy grin of his.
We held hands and walked out the school since Gray was staying late to get help with his math.
"Ethan promise we will be friends no matter what?"
"I promise Em, I will always protect you. I lo-" in the middle of his sentence someone came running to us with all black and only being in third grade we were very confused on what was going on.
Ethan jumped in front of me and yelled "don't hurt her, I love her and if she gets hurt I won't be able to live with myself knowing I let this beautiful, kind, and caring girl get hurt!"
"Ohh we aren't here to hurt you guys! Right fellas?" he smirked and all his friends behind him shook their heads up and down.
Ethan looked hesitant but agreed with them and asked what they wanted. I was too terrified to talk so I stood behind Ethan shaking to bad to move.
Soon a teacher came and pulled me back with Ethan.
The teacher told us we would have to wait for Gray to be done with tutoring for us to leave so we said ok and she left. She noticed the boys and looked confused but walked away anyways.
I told Ethan I was scared and he tried to cheer me up "It's ok Emmy they won't hurt us they're nice guys."
"Yeah Em we don't want to hurt you we promise we just want to have fun!"
"Look i'll prove it" little Ethan said.
He walked over there leaving me and grabbed his hand. The guy looked down at him and said now bring your little girlfriend over here. I said no and they said what we and took Ethan and stared running
"NOO ETHAN!!! DON'T TAKE HIM PLEASE!! I said trying to chase them with my short stubby legs.
     They stopped mid tracks and turned back around the one who held ethan smirking back at me.
"Oh baby girl... Do you want to save your little boyfriend now...?" he said slowly coming closer.
Ethan stayed behind with the two other guys. I looked at him and in his eyes I could see how terrified he was. How red his eyes were from crying for even those short few moments.
  I looked at the guy in front of me
"Yes. I love him and won't let you hurt him take me instead."
"ENILY NO!" Ethan ran back to me and hugged me even harder than before but I didn't care he made me feel safe and protected so I hugged back just as tight.
    The guy came towards us both.
"Very well then. We shall take both then."
The two other guys came towards us and - -

flashback over
I suddenly realize i'm still in the bathroom sitting on the toilet in Grays lap kicking and screaming.
"NO DON'T TAKE HIM PLEASE!! ETHAN COME BACK!! I NEED YOU!! Please..." As my voice broke at the end.
I was having another anxiety attack and Gray was whispering
"breathe it will be ok I promise, it will be ok..."
I slowly calmed down and said "it was all my fault. "
"He's been gone for a 9 years since today and it's all my fault. He could be dead because of me. " With the last sentence I looked up at him tears still streaming down my face.
Gray rocked me to sleep saying soothing things and telling me it wasn't my fault I soon fell asleep but had the weirdest dream ever....


So the cliff hanger is over! I promise it will get better soon. There's some good stuff coming up 😏
Adios, until next time!

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