I Promise You This Isn't Pain You're Feeling [A Black Veil Brides fanfiction]

Chapter 3

"See ya guys!" Hayley and Katie both give me a hug and wave goodbye to me and the guys before hopping off the bus and heading down the street to their houses. We all wave back and go sit down on the sofas again.

"Time to drop me off at home now." I sigh.

"Not exactly." CC smirks.

"What do you mean, CC? Oh shit... What have you done now?" I nervously laugh.

"Well, I was on the phone to Mom a few minutes ago and she said it's cool with her for you to finish the tour with us if you want to." He grins. I gasp and try my hardest not to squeal. I just sit there, shaking my head in disbelief while all the guys laugh at me.

"Don't fucking laugh at me!" I punch Andy's arm as he's the closest one to me. "You can't tell me you wouldn't freak out it your favourite band asked you to tour with them, whether the drummer's your brother or not!" The boys all mutter in defeat and I laugh, highly amused. I decide I need to freshen up a little.

"Am I okay to jump in the shower?" I ask.

"Go ahead! Want me to join you?" Ashley winks.

"No thanks, Purdy. For some reason I don't think that'd go down too well with little Andrew over there." I stick my tongue out joking and Andy starts to blush. Wow...

After my shower, I tie my hair up into a messy ponytail and pull on an oversized Metallica shirt and some Batman pajama bottoms. I genuinely feel pretty for once. I walk back to the living area to find Ashley sat there sipping a can of lager.

"Hey there hot stuff." He smirks mischievously at me.

"Fuck off, Ash. Where's the others?"

"Jake and Jinxx went to chill in their bunks, CC went in the back room to play Call of Duty and Andy went outside for a smoke." He tells me.

"Thanks man." I say, pulling a black hoodie out of my bag and throwing it around my shoulders before stepping out of the bus. "Hey, Andy." I smile as I walk up to him.

"Hey, Kaitlyn! Just a warning, you may not wanna stand out here too long. It's a bit nippy." Andy chuckles.

"Awh is little Andy getting a lickle bit cold?" I laugh as I mock him in a baby voice.

"Ha ha. Very funny, Kaitlyn." Andy makes a sarcastic remark. I roll my eyes and lean against the bus.

"Do you mind if I...?" I point towards his cigarette.

"You smoke?" Andy asks, shocked. I timidly nod and he passes a cigarette to me.

"Thanks." I mutter as Andy lights it for me. He nods and we stand in silence for a while. Andy's the one to break the silence.

"So, what was it like back at the orphanage?" He asks. I glance at him and then face the ground as I explain.

"It was absolutely bullshit, to put it nicely. No one there even liked me. They couldn't wait to get me off their hands. The other kids used to bully the shit out of me. I used to get physical and verbal abuse too. The amount of times I went to bed with blood running from my nose or my lip was unreal. And all that was floating around my head were the words; 'emo faggot', 'waste of oxygen', 'kill yourself'. And that's what drove me to-" I stop myself before I let anything slip.

"Drove you to what, Kaitlyn?" Andy raises an eyebrow at me.

"Nothing. It's nothing..."

"I'm not convinced. What did you do?" He asks, more sternly this time. I take a deep breath, lift up one of the sleeves of my hoodie and push back my wristbands. My scars are clear to see. Andy slowly moves closer to me, studying my wrist. He stretches out a hand and gently lifts my arm so he can see the scars better. "Why?" He asks, plainly.

"I told you why, Andy." I say. Andy lifts my chin with the index finger of his other hand. My eyes fill up and a tear runs down my cheek.

"Hey, hey. Don't cry, Kaitlyn. You're beautiful. You shouldn't do this to yourself, and you shouldn't cry over it. You're stronger than this. I know it."

"That's the thing, Andy. I'm not. I'm not better than this." The tears start to fall heavier. Andy pulls me closer to himself, puts his arms around me and kisses my hair.

"You're not alone

We'll brave this storm

And face today

You're not alone."

I look up to face him and the smile on his face is incredibly soothing.

"Never give in

Never back down

Never give in

Never back down

When your life feels lost

Fight against all odds!

Never give in

Never back down."

We break the hug and Andy keeps hold of my hands.

"Remember that, okay?" I nod. "One last thing I want you to know." He smiles.

"Saviour will be there

When you are feeling alone, oh

A saviour, for all that you do

So you live freely without their harm."

I weakly smile back at him as he sings Saviour.

"Thank you, Andy." I whisper.

"It's not a problem. If you ever feel the urge to harm yourself, promise me you'll give me a call."

"I promise. With all my heart." I reply, my voice cracking a little.

"Good, now let's get you back inside." Andy says, wiping my tears away with his thumb. I nod and follow him into the bus.

Ashley has disappeared so I'm presuming he's gone to his own bunk or gone to join CC.

"Fancy watching a movie?" Andy asks me. I grin.

"That'd be great. And I think we both know what we want to watch." I smirk.

"BATMAN!" We laugh as Andy slides the disc into the DVD player and takes a seat next to me on the sofa.

"Cool pjs by the way." Andy smiles.

"Why thank you, Mr. Biersack." I giggle, taking off my hoodie and throwing it over the arm of the sofa.

"It's my pleasure, Miss. Coma." He chuckles as he presses the play button. A few minutes into the film, Andy casually slips his arm around my shoulder. I glance at him, but he's still fully engaged in the film. Hmmm.

About half way through, my eyes start to feel heavy. I cuddle up to Andy and rest my head on his shoulder. He won't mind. Soon enough, I'm drifting off into a good night's sleep.

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[A/N: Things are picking up a bit now! I'm off school for the whole of this week for a half-term break so I'll probably be updating daily, and maybe I'll update on more than one occasion in a day. c: Vote, comment, follow or whatever. c': Feedback is always welcome.

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