Inside The Mind Of A Broken Girl | Bio

23.0 (i think)

To my best friend (you know who you are if you're reading this)

I know that you didn't want to come back and I'm not going to apologized that we're the reason you did. You're cool, you're really nice, you're caring, and probably the most mature person in our group of friends.

You told me multiple times that things will get better and all that shit blah blah blah and honestly I didn't believe it but I tried to make you think that I was getting better and stuff. I still don't believe it and I don't think I ever will. Honestly I do what I do to punish myself for all other things I've done wrong and for the stupid things I did to push people I know/love/like to the point where they can't look at me (happened once with my mom).

I know what I said and did was over the top and I know I went too far. I regretted it the moment I pushed send. It was cruel and mean and totally unnecessary yet I still did it. I pushed you too far and you sorta snapped. I deserved it tho. I actually hoped you read all my books, exposed all my secrets, just punished me in general but you didn't which got me pissed even tho I shouldn't be the one mad in the situation. But I just needed you to punish me for everything I did to you and everyone else in our group no matter how big or small my crime was. And I won't call myself a dumb ass or a bitch.

I'm just a regular teenage girl who wants to be punished for all of her wrong doings because nobody does. The way I put it makes it sound like I'm a spoiled little brat who gets away with murder. I am tho and I guess that's why I do what I do.

So yeah. I'm not going to apologize because you told me not to but just know that I am sorry. I'm tired and sad and lost and me. I have a mean streak. I'm a hot head. I'm annoying at times. And I'm always screwing something up.

But yeah. Shit happens. People get hurt. You move on. I never do. But it's whatever. And I'm stalling.

So yeah. You'll still be my favorite out other group and you'll still be the weird raspberry loving hoe. And a funny guy with a shrimp. And a very smart man that reminds me of thumper from Bambi, nuggets, and faila.

Eventually I'll get better and you'll be the person that helped me through my fucked up shit and shitty shit shit shit life and shit. So thank you for everything I guess.

Did I mention that you're still my favorite.